Saturday, April 30, 2005

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sigh.. one of the amazing scenario that always swim in my mind
sunset by the shore..

not perfect 12

The Harvard Guy did texted me..
and it bothers me this time..
he seems to relay a motive..
a motive of some sort of something..
i bet he's into me..

and i rolled the dice

its not perfect 12
but i move in for the play..

i send him a reply
and he bite the hook.
there you are.. im into reeling again..
i find it really weird to feel like a puppy lad
once again..
trying to tame my heart not to bark..

Thursday, April 28, 2005

im so damn alone!!!
where are my pals!
im just done with my interview for the
for a Summer Art Workshop at PlayHouse
and im here all alone in a cafeteria..

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

i miss bry..
i thought we cud see eachother this night..
but he werent there..
instead, i saw kuya Jhong..
whose into me, but he's not my type..
he have this, suggestive glare at me..

im concern about brian's suspension
in his job at Bo's
i don't know his later plans..
im just damn worried..

on top

I fuck with somebody..
this time im top.
my first time..
it feels weird but later i find it great..
i guess i should always have lubricant and condom
in my bag everytime i go out swimming..
the shower room is just so tempting..
and the winks..

Vera told me so..

Can't believe my article about my Argao Escapade with Johnna
will get published in Freeman! Whoa!
Vera told me so..
that Angel Julie read it.. and so she txted me too..
don't know what should i feel..
'tis my first time to get published in a local newspaper!


testimonial at friendster

Friday, October 01, 2004:

hes kinda weird at 1st namo
meeting... He suddenly approached
me, out of nowhere, and nagpaila ila...
Natingala gud ko niya ato na time...
But of course, bootan man gud ko
(hehehe), nagpaila ila pud ko.
Am i that hard to approach?!! That's
my question to him... alangan, nag
scratch note ba and then gibutang sa
akong bag... maulaw dsaw siya nako
so mao to... Then i told him na ok man
lang siya mo istorya nako... so mao
nato nagsogod ang tanan. sukad ato,
medyo nagkaclose nami...
as i know him a lot better, i like my
friend... bootan, thoughtful, kind, etc...
iya pako gipahiram sa iyang color
pencil (& hopefully matabangan ko
niya sa artwork sa akong math scrap
book), though medyo babaw, i really
appreciate it...
Liyo, ul always be a good friend of
sige, God Bless! Ingatz!

still, this testimonial in my friendster account
brings me to nuts!
shit! it just that this person seems to be damn straight..
or he's trying to..
many people says he's a jerk..
but i believe he got so many potentials..
and i believe he could be someone someday..

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Wish that I could lie in the sun
Same things as anyone
Wish I could lie down there
With my feet high in the air

I'd have a drink in my hand
Read words from a newspaper stand
Wish I could lie in the sun
Wish I could fly like everyone
Same things as anyone
Same things as anyone

But you burn me up, you paint my skin
In bad designs that ain't even in

My skin's crawling up the wall
Into the the ocean I'd love to fall
I hear the sounds but they ain't the same
As feeling them with you two feet away

There's always more worse of than me
Suppose I'm lucky I can even see
All the people that I'd like to be
Passing me by everyday in the street
Same things as anyone
Same things as anyone

But you burn me up, you paint my skin
In bad designs that ain't even in
I got good lungs, I got a good heart
My mind is fit and my feet can walk

And here I am in the shade on the street
Asking people for money to eat
What did I ever do to deserve this?
Did I kill a child or something worse?
Same things as anyone
What's the reason, maybe make you feel
How much more fortunate you are than me
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Barely Breathing

Duncan Sheik

I know what you're doing, I see it all to clear
I only taste the saline when I kiss away your tears
You really had me going, wishing on a star
But the black holes that surround you are heavier by far

I believed in your confusion, you were so completely torn
Well it must have been that yesterday was the day that I was born
There's not much to examine, there's nothing left to hide
You really can't be serious if you have to ask me why

I say good-bye... 'Cause I am barely breathing And I can't find the air I don't know who I'm kidding Imagining you care And I could stand here waiting A fool for another day But I don't suppose it's worth the price, worth the price The price that I would pay
Everyone keeps asking, what's it all about?
I used to be so certain and I can't figure out
What is this attraction? I only feel the pain
There's nothing left to reason and only you to blame
Will it ever change?

'Cause I am barely breathing
And I can't find the air
I don't know who I'm kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
But I don't suppose it's worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay
But I'm thinking it over anyway...

I've come to find
I may never know
Your changing mind
Is it friend or foe?

I rise above Or sink below With every time You come and go Please don't come and go 'Cause I am barely breathing And I can't find the air I don't know who I'm kidding Imagining you care And I could stand here waiting A fool for another day But I don't suppose it's worth the price, worth the price The price that I would pay But I'm thinking it over anyway...

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Im Back!

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

i came accross with this fish as i swam Malbago's temptation
beach in Bantayan.. its just a knee level snorkeling.. =)
my mouth bubbles as i mutter the word "marvelous" underwater!
it was awesome! this specie swim so graceful and it excites me even to try catching
this one.. whoa! thanks fishy!

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Saturday, April 23, 2005

Saddened yet Amazed

it saddened me to see Lynn and Alex were both eliminated
in the Amazing Raze (India)
both give me high hopes in exposing Gay Couples
as a norm..
sheng! i'll miss them.. they were absolutely a nice couple..
nice relationship and bondings..
their's sometimes eludes me fantasize about Nikko
(since Lynn is chubby too =) hehehe!)

nywy, i'll race with my partner someday..

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

under the moonlight

i beamed as i saw his figure by the stall nearby our campus
it was early night by then, and it was damn humid..
i drag him towards our campus and tour him around.
we snicker upon the street painting along the covered walk
specially the one entitled "the human evolution"
that was made by Pat, Harvhey and Grace last Mind Works..
then we hurried over the cavelike hallway we have in the New Bldng.
cringy, we dared passing by the darkened alley at the west wing
later i realize that both hands clasping unknowingly.
it was scarry, yet thrilled by the romance about to happen..

after watching the mini exhibit by the intensive designing class
of Mdm. Estella in the mini gallery, we peek at the once balcony
that was already secluded by the covering white wall.
there we speak of nothingness.. he comment and shut him up with a kiss.

then we run somewhere, aware that he has a limited time left
he still have a 7:00 am work in the morning shift at Bo's tomorrow..
walking fast, we pass by through the crowd (Graduation Ceremony)
and hail a jeepney bound to sixth street..

after 10 mins. of walk and treking..
the two of us both panting and catching our breath..
were still across a slope that lead us into a great clearing that could
view the city below from the top..
the moon was amazingly bright and were surrounded with the sparkling lights..
it was awesome!
i once travel here up above either with my drinking buds or alone..
and now im with someone..

spreading a blanket to lie upon,
he settled, exhausted..
i was kinda feeling guilty
but he assure me that he's ok
for its been so long since he climbs a mountain..
and he just fresh from his job..

so i did him some massage.. 'twas like a wife to a husband!
shit! i dunno.. i dont know if i should be grateful to serve or i feel
some kinda drained.. later that i realize that im tired too..
i got a hell like week.. running errands and ol..
so patas ra mi.. but the thing is im always the one who serves..
though he always insist paying the bills and ol.. but still.. i don't know..
i just sense some gap.. some lack..
plus his never ending talk about his ex
his meeting sessions with his pal..
to think i cancelled my 7:30 meeting regarding to our upcomming Manila tour
nga walay klaro with Jay Puhanes and the rest of the Ka-Brews..
somehow.. it was good though, but its clear that it's unfair..

but still, we hug eachother under the moonlight..
rays passing through the dark coves of our individuality..
i still feel lacking..
i should explore more..

my mobile ..
it just that mine is grey
not crimson red

im proud of this stuff
for i spent my first formal salary
as an Art Facilitator at the Summer Art Workshop in PSI.
it was last summer, it was cool by then,
working as a teacher and at the same time caretaker for kids ages 4-6

years old.. it was definitely ardous! argh!
but it was a great feeling to see them in progress and learning how to draw their
first flower, first house, and first sun with you..
shrek! it was damn rewarding!
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almost a year old

it brings me to tingles everytime
i receive txt msgs from these people:

the Mr. Bo's Coffee man
i meet him at Sports Center
and i swim with him one time at the pool
he's the most concern person i ever have on my screen
with his usual "amping ha.." at the end of his text..
my inbox is mostly dominated by him.

he study at Bohol but he came somewhere from Mindanao
he offer me to be accomodated by him when i tell
him im going to Bohol for the Fiesta..
i met him at the MIRC

the friendster dude
he is young still, could fall for a younger brother to me..
he knows how to cook, he profess
USC student.. a TM user

and together with my avid txt suckers
they bring life to my almost-a-year-old mobile i have..

thanx everyone!

together with Mdm. Ligtas, Jay and his Sister..
the Ka-BRews did warak at Ratsky
and it was definitely a blast!

i sense that each of us have his/her own version
on how did the night goes..
i must see their posting in their blog =)
nywy.. it all started when Jay M. planned and do invite
me with the rest of the gang to go for "laag"
and the rest was history..
while Yen and Ver do hunt for clothings
Chai on her headphones sip her coffee at Bo's
and i suggest for a refill and she simply obey with a smirk
thanx chai!
then the two girls do pop up..
Vera with her stunning outfit
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while Yen wear same color as mine: lime green.
The four of us have this talk regarding psycho analysis about sexual traumatism
when Jay and Russ appear on the scene..
followed by Mdm. Ligtas and Jay's Sis
we decided to settle at Ratsky..
we chill off the night with San Mig Light.. some do have iced tea
and Chilly Ice
the Live Band is so awesome!
there's LIVEWIRE
with their cute smilling male vocalist and i must say he
recognize my presence =)
or maybe its a mere assumption..
watevr! =) lol!

i guess the night is meant for a special celebrant..
and that is Vera.. who gnna celebrate her birthday this 29th!
she have a special greeting on stage, a birthday song and a cake!!..

amazed, she is.. she blow her candle with a wish..

then came First Step..
rock with a tinge of smooth..
the chubby vocalist is damn sexy!
but he's not even an inch closer to Brian..
well, Bry is simply beyond compare..

we rave all night..
sweaty and wacky..
we dance, we laugh, and we definitely enjoy the moment..

thanx Jay and his Sis..
they make this night out possible..

i extremely had a great night,
except the pain i have in my bulge
damn hernia!

i promise i'll wear supporter next time..

Monday, April 18, 2005

Your Body is a Wonderland
John Mayer

we've got the afternoon
you've got this room for two
one thing I've left to do
discover me discovering you

one mile to every inch of
your skin like porcelain
one pair of candy lips
and your bubblegum tongue

cause if you want love
we'll make it
swim in a deep sea
of blankets
take all your big plans
and break 'em
this is bound to be awhile

your body is a wonderland
your body is a wonder I'll use my hands
your body is a wonderland

something about the way the hair falls in your face
I love the shape you take when crawling towards the pillow case
you tell me where to go though I might leave to find it
I'll never let your head hit the bed without my hand behind it

if you want love
we'll make it
swim in a deep sea
of blankets
take all your big plans
and break 'em
this is bound to be awhile

Your body is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder I'll use my hands

damn, baby
you frustrate me
I know you're mine all mine all mine
but you look so good it hurts sometimes

your body is a wonderland
your body is a wonder I'll use my hands
your body is a wonderland
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Sunday, April 17, 2005

the thing

couldn't regain my normal pulse rate
the moment i saw Brian by the ticket counter
he's in for a swim
just what we had planned

it was the 14th when he first txted me..
and jst the day after, i had my longest phone call with him
it was definitely a blast when i bet him in a challenge not to talk for
a minute and he promise me a treat for the consequence

and i have this moment i couldn't possibly imagine..
we hug in the pool..
for i missing him badly even the night before..
we swim until the bell rings for the 8:00 o'clock off

were seems to be long time friends
for i feel comfortable with his presence
we talk and all by the shower room..
and we talk just the two of us..

the place is already deserted.

his a big bear of a man..
half foot higher than me i guess
and his squezing hug chokes me
but i definitely like it!

we walk the night lane.
filled with sulfuric street lamps
and flooding head lights
from the passing vehicles.
the walking distance from the sports complex
to midtown was covered with his arm around me
and he declare that he wasn't ashamed of doing it in public
he simply doesn't give a damn at all..

=) i felt wonderful

we ate at Mc Donalds
and he insist to pay the bill
he's spoiling me.

and he spoil me more..

we drag our butts
to a motel
and we have this rush to do the thing..
and we start undressing..

we get naked
unravel the inhibitions that cover us
let loose of any shame
let loose of individuality
and be human

can't help but to moan
his tongue was a blast
his lips so enticing..
shit! damn wonderful!
both of us were driving..
i like it when im necking him
and whisper my name with such sultryness..

my partner could go for a pornstar.
his body, his butt and his dick,
he got the biggest so far i'v sing with..
he have a great talent
too huge to swallow, it chokes me
my gag reflex failed me..
so we go for penetration
and it drives me mad like a dog!
argh! arf! arf! =)

two hours seems to last
how i wanted him for a regular trainor
and he wanted me to take home..
but reality hits
his "ex" txting him..

they were going to meet..

=) fine then..

as few minutes running out
i give him a massage
as what we had planned
and he kiss me more for that..

how we hug and kissed deeply,
he taps my bums and we get out from the motel

the outdoor breeze cool off my sweaty cheeks

whoa! what a night!
silence sorrounds us
he mutters something and i punch him lightly at his back
as i hail for a jeepney
he let me embark for my ride home
and say "txt me when u got home, amping.."

... it took me a while when i realize
i am alone again..
i feel sad somehow
but i feel aglow as soon as i grab an orange soda
by the nearest fuel station




FOR LIYO 04/16/05 2:00 am

Blue you

But i have seen
your blue gauntlet
manifest helixes
and blue spirits
around you
i have seen
your cartwheels
on the sand
and the way
it wakes the night ocean
rise in reply

I can no longer tell
which is true and which isn't
among your choppy blue tales
about your own blue spirit
wandering around in your blue city
or flying in your blue sky
or sailing in your blue seas

You are indeed
the mysterious wolf
howling against the blue moon,
You are alone.
Alone with such company
a royal cortege that is the earth
and us, a few spirits
of other colors
still quite alien
to your dance's details
or the queer origins
of your blue taste





Here's to three out of twenty years of song
and dance and tales of misadventures:
of late nights of straining muscles and
breaking a leg, if not with booze
and talk and talk and belly tearing
laughter, leaving intestines on sidewalk cement
at fifteen before witching hour

of 35-peso limits on caffeinand nicotine
and temporary bliss with them,
or their lack

of sessions attempting to break the seemingly
formidable yet fragile glass called
boredom with a high pitched BRUUHAHA

with minds that possess the inherent capability
of welcoming complexity and chaos
that, in one swirl of sugar and cream,
blend to taste of mornings or afternoons
of broken-curfewed evenings in coffee shops

ranting, ranting, ranting about life
ranting, panting through life and love
and how we annoy ourselves with
how we annoy eachother with more
through the 3 years we have chosen
to be stuck together.

Here's to many more of the enumerated.



to liyo:
with love,

Naligo sa suka
Hubog sa tuba
Nangaslom mong dagway
Kalit nga namahuway

sa tungok
sa agok-ok
sa hilak
sa si-aw
sa lakaw
sa sayaw
sa kape
sa laki

sa tuigan nga panaghigala...


Friday, April 15, 2005

come away with me
Norah Jones

Come away with me in the night
Come away with me
And I will write you a song

Come away with me on a bus
Come away with me where they can't tempt us
With their lies

I want to walk with you
On a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows
knee kigh
So won't you try to come

Come away with me and we'll kiss
On a mountain top
Come away with me
And I'll never stop loving you

And I want to wake up with the rain
Falling on a tin roof
While I'm safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you
To come away with me in the night
Come away with me
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iv got this greatest phone call so far..
a call from this person
who work @ Bo's
and his name is Mr. Brian Devin

hours passed by with our conversation
the stillness of the past midnight awakes us..

by dawn..
we're connected through wires
through the thoughts that flows,
of streams of moments that fill the hollows
of moments which were still unknown..

sensibility.. or the lack thereof
i was


Thursday, April 14, 2005

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i was damn dismayed after i hand out my application letter to
sir Sio just moments ago..

i have this desire to be a part of his summer art workshop
as a facilitator at SM have this high hope since i have
experience in tolerating kid's annoyance while teaching them..
and for the fact that there's 6,000 pesos at the end of the workshop! my gosh!..
but everything smashed out as sir Sio came out
from the his black cruiser and read my letter..
a scowl, a smirk then he mutters i was just hours late.. =(

fine then..
how i want to shrug off and leave..
thinkin, where i gonna get money to buy my converse shoes..
my dream all star shoes..

then how could i possibly replace my parents money as i do "waldas" there money during my "lakwatsa" this summer..
of course, i have to spend here and there to suit my craving..
heheh.. i plead guilty for being such shopaholic, glutton, and party booper!
so wanted to cry in despair!!!

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(with the whispery voice)
im hook with it!
and i like Thur!
Lloyd seems to have Nikko's face..
the only difference is that Lloyd is not chubby..

sheng! how i badly needed a big bear!
i want to be embraced by the huge cuddly humanimal..
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there's no entertaining news other than WAZZUP WAZZUP!
such wacky anchor persons: VHONG NAVARRO, TONI GONZAGA, and DREW ARELLANO and field reporters such as KIKIAM SANTIAGO!
the wit, the nerve and her divinity.. i definitely adore her!
and of course, the REKLAMADOR! =)
as im posting this one (and downloading the pic)
this statement in the web page sends me to cringe..

***Watch WAZZUP WAZZUP every weeknight, 07:00 p.m. on Studio 23.
Downloading, reusing, and reproducing of photos are prohibited.


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Wednesday, April 13, 2005

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chocolate hills in Carmen, Bohol
still unconquered..
hmmm... maybe this summer..
soon.. =)
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starry starry night by master Van Gogh..
this one an old favorite!
always be my "considered" classic of all time..
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Monday, April 11, 2005

i love the feeling of having the strength
to do things i want..
even if it does'nt turn into what i wanted to,
but atleast i move for it.

i live life!
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this one from jeff compasso
one of the leading photographer
in the Gay Art gallery archives..
such a shot!
i love the momentum
frozed in the peak of masturbational climax.
really find it cool!
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