Tuesday, April 29, 2008

"you are never fully dressed whitout a smile"

to veruscka and to the universe that she owned this day..

Sunday, April 27, 2008

post midnight idiosyncrasy

it's darn weekend and I'm stuck in the washroom trying to dry off my beer-sweat-soaked- cigarette-reeking shirt.

darn, last night was a blast'

Saturday, April 26, 2008

ug sa dihang nangabasa'

I just stayed in my room for a good couple of minutes (from two day domestic life in Danao) when my phone screamed and Russ, whose on the other line, told me they are heading North. Russ has his random urge to go any place again, and Vera and Chai are already tagging along with this spur of the moment escapade. Ok, so I asked where?

and Russ told me they're heading North, to Danao.

I just came there and I'm slightly exhausted from the trip. But I can't erase the idea of missing the moment with them, so without a trace of hesitation in my voice i flash the green light.

Ok go. Fine..

We are like little children who went out for a trip without any plans in mind. One thing that excites us is the beach. since its quite a moonless night and the place could be deserted, to dare for skinny dipping is a must. We can't wait to plunge into the dark water. But our anticipation were drenched as heavy rain drowned the entire region. Even though we are still miles away from our destination, we are already beaten wet.

It is like a declaration that summer is about to end, since the dusty road now turns into a muddy highway. Once we step foot in Danao, we hurriedly took shelter to a already closed resort. With guilt, we trespassed the place and stayed in one of the cottages. yayks!

the place that surrounds us is quite dark, we only have a glimpse of it each time a lightning flashes across the unseen sky. The cottage is quite inviting and we stayed there for the night. talking, laughing, being scared with passing strangers, getting cold, listening to the rain, sleeping, aimlessly wondering about our own arbitrary thoughts, sleeping side by side on a table but no skinny dipping.

Thursday, April 17, 2008


naglingkod sa daplin
sa kapehan
akong gi-ginhawa
ang aroma
sa distansya natong duha
diin liboan ka kilometro
ang nagbuwag sa atong kalag
nga kanunay gilamoy sa aso' sa paghandum

daw suba sa kapait
ang akong tasa
diin ako:


nalumos sa kinalawman sa akong kamingaw

sa ngitngit
misubay kini akong mga tudlo
nga nikurog, nituskig
dayon sa pag-kalma niini
sa dihang nahutdan na ug kinabuhi.
susama sa mga liboang hilo
nga gihomol sa dagat,
nag'wara-wara sa ilawom sa tubig.

maayo unta nga mabaling ka
sa akong mga tudlo nga ginama sa hilo
aron mabati nimo ang mga pulong
nga dili naku ma'ilitok
kay naliso man sa akong dila

maayo unta nga mabaling ka
sa akong mga tudlo nga ginama sa hilo
aron mag'kahi-usa ta
taliwala sa distansya
nga nagbuwag kanatong duha

ug sa taknang panahon
mahibalik ka kanako
ug sa hangtud sa hangtud
'tang duha magkabalikos.

sa pagka'karon dinhi sa daplin sa kapehan,
akong gi-ginhawa
ang aroma
sa distansya natong duha
diin liboan ka kilometro
ang nagbuwag sa atong kalag
nga kanunay gilamoy sa aso' sa paghandum

sa akong kapungot

ako nang gilubong akong kamot
sa kalagot
sa kasamok
sa kapungot

ug sa dihang nahi-abot ka
hala, wala kay swerte
ikaw ang nabuthan sa akong kalagot
ayaw ko basola kung nabusdakan tika
ayaw ko mahaya kung nag-abot ta
karong adlawa
kay ikaw ang nag-pasegrab ani akong
ni-upos nga pasensya

dah, nabuthan ka noon
sa akong kapungot
nawindang ka sa akong kasilag
napaknit imong pagbati
natunok ka sa akong gimpangsabwag na thumbtacks
busa imong gi kamang ang yawe
sa imong luspad na kapalaran

dili gyud ko mangayog pasaylo
dili ko mangayog despensya
kay wala ka masayod sa akong gibati
tulo na ni kaadlaw nga ako nagpailub
gi-kumkum kining pasensya nga nag'awas-awas
bahala ka uroy
kung mangaway ka
bahala ka uroy
kung mag-yawyaw ka

ayaw ko samoka
leche ka!

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

alang kanimo

ako nang gihalad ang akong kasing-kasing

akong gihimbisan
gi kuwaan ug hasang
ug gibukyad
sa kainit
dihang ni evapora
ang pisik sa dugo
nga ni kurog
dungan sa paghilak ning akong dughan

ni kinang sa akong mga mata
ang unod nga ni sayaw
sa matag hapak sa kasilaw sa adlaw
sa dihang kini ni kuyos
ug nauga dungan sa pagtaghoy
sa akong kaguol

sakto ra ba sa kaparat?
sakto raba pagka-uga?
sakto na ba ang timbang
sa kabug-aton sa akong gibate
aron matagad mo kini akong gidalit
para lang kanimo

sakto na ba akong gibuhat aron ka makahibaw
nga sa hagbay na panahon
ako: magpabiling mo-alagad kanimo
nga ako: hangtud sa hangtud mo dangup kanimo
apan dili pa kini sakto
aron mo angay sa imong garbo

busa, ipabilin ko kining akong kasing-kasing
nga gabukyad sa mga matang na walay katin'awan
nag-uga sa gugma nga walay klaro
apan tuskig sa pagbati
alang kanimo

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

sa kamingaw

kung ako:
gaminghoy, mikuyos ug nalaya
kung ako:
nakugang, nagping-it sa kalagot
buhok nangalarot

sud-ungon tika sa kamingaw

kung ang akong
mga dangoyngoy
panalangin ug pangamilit
nangapalid uban sa unos
nga gidala ni hanging habagat
hala sige, kilatan tika sa kamingaw

kung kita,
nag-abot sa parula
diin atong mga damgo nag-abot.
apan napidpid sa pangpang
ug nangapaksit ang atong mga dughan

hala sige, ibusdak ko akong kamingaw

didto sa isla sa pagpangamilit
itanom ko kining pangutana
nga sa dugay nga panahon
ni turok, nangalingsing
ug nigamot gikan sa parat nga balas:

intawn sa kamingaw sa akong kalag,
ngano ikaw man?

meandering in the labyrinth of queries

Everytime you try to sleep,
what's the usual thing that come's up to your mind?

inside the bus, what keeps you from getting bored?

what is the maximum days does a sperm cell survives in the pharynx?

when a suicide bomber explodes, what's her last facial expression?

if u get drowned,
do your fingers throb and stiffened or do they sway in the water gracefully as they die.

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

keeping the tradition

today, i want to be in a place i've never been to yet.

the first few minutes after the clock hits midnight, i was catering to a pseudo customer who needs to change her billing address on her account. I assist her with glee, each words that comes from my mouth send assurance across the airwaves.

when i'm done done with today's work i finally decided to keep the tradition. the year before last year, i was in Olanggo. then just a year ago, i went to Malapascua. Now i want to go to Sipaway island. It is an island located just nearby San Carlos Port in Negros Occidental---located on the western coast of the country.

On my way to the south bus terminal, i pass by Cebu Doctor's hospital and have the urge to go there just to peek on their nursery section. i saw bunch of newly born babies. My eyes were drawn to a baby boy who was born just on the crack of dawn on this day, April 09 2008. Reading the tag on the sterilized crib, his name is Ochea.

Afterwards i passed by at the Basilica Sto. NiƱo and marvel the old church's grandiosity. the newly woke up sun licking its humongous wall turning the edifice a glowing spiritual monument.
it's just magnificent when u get inside the church you have this floating feeling as if your walking into a higher dimension. i proceed to the annex where u could see the famous little child icon on His reign. Forever smiling. I later then went outside to the patio and light up some candles and murmur my prayers.

The moment i arrived at the south terminal, i settled on a bus bound to Toledo. The travel from Cebu City to Toledo would take around 2 hours and will cost you Php60.00. The operation manager attached a TV and a DVD player inside the vehicle for the intention to keep the passengers from getting bored. Well, i am greatly annoyed. They're showing a war movie and the their speakers are too loud. So imagine hows the effect of each bullet and grenade that explodes. As much as i want to deviate my attention, i couldn't keep my eyes on the American soldier who starred in the movie who happened to be so darn hot. So there goes my sexual fantasy, as bumpy as the road we pass by.

Finally, we arrived in Toledo. I scored a vessel ticket bound to San Carlos. Too tired and sleepy, i dozed off while on board. The bustling of the passengers who can't wait to get out wake me up. So i'm officially here in San Carlos. I could hear most people speak in Hiligaynon. I asked a tanned ship crew when will be the last trip way back to Toledo. And i also tried to speak with the locals on how to go around the area. I even found myself pressed to speak in Tagalog since most locals speak in Tagalog when i tried to speak in Cebuano... ahh ok.

Now, i got the whole place to explore. Sipaway, the island that i would like to go to is just nearby. It is around 10-15 minutes boat ride from the wharf. I'm very enthusiastic to go around places and would love the idea of staying for days. However, due to time constraint (for the fact that i still have to work later this night) that plan is improbable. Plus, my facilitator's threatening voice keeps on ringing on my head during the first few days of training keep on ringing on my head: "You can't afford to be absent nor be late. It will certainly lead to termination"

that very notion cringes me.

Unfortunately, i stayed in a place-i've-never-been-to last just for a few minutes and have no other choice but to go back. The ship crew just sway his head when he have me as a passenger again as i wrote my name in the passenger's manifesto going back to Cebu. Atleast, my first mission has been accomplished.

making my way back to the city makes me feel like forfeited. I tried to cheer myself up but i was totally consumed with disappointment, just like the mountains outside my bus window being swallowed by the advancing dusk. the sunset already passed its prime, from splashing power red on the sky to washing it to melancholic purple. flock of birds chirping their way to their nest. i feel tiny drizzle drops on my skin. they are so minute that it seems to be confused where to fall. and the last images that i could recall is the scene when i pass by some fading shores, i was thinking that they're giving up their luminosity for the meantime so they could glow back the next day.

Sunday, April 06, 2008

Bjork - Wanderlust

finally! Bjork's official Wanderlust music video. Undeniably a notable leap towards 3D cinematography.

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