05/31
-revisit basilica sto nino with carri
-i remember every time me and my siblings have bdays, my mother used to bring us here
-made a fervent prayer
05/30
-went kawasan and moalboal
-kawasan: same natural wonders, same natural powers
recharged my crystals and my core being with the spring
-moalboal: went free diving but its too high tide and the corals and fishes were too far deep dow below, had encounter with them but only with short encounter since there was also these usual attacks of small jelly like itch causing se organisms.
-saw a cutie watching over me. but i was with carri and he is with his friends.
i wish i can simply join and swim with him
-end it with drinks with the rainy sunset, not bad to end our 8 hour road tri back and forth. Barili have its charm.
05/29
- last day in sta fe after 2 weeks of staying at the island paradise. i felt over staying but definitely each day has its own highlights and sparks.
went snorkeling with cari near the ruins and then we went to ogtong cave to have breakfast
05/28
bare it all
skinny dipping while full moon
white sand
white light
and white luminous crystal water
very dream like
felt divine and sublime
05/27
- 12:30 am , high tide, sta fe bantayan. took a dip while its full moon
-recharge my crystals and manifest
05/26
-havent posted in fb, just to make sure my colleagues wont know im not working in the office in manila but im actually working in a resort here in sta. fe
-at this point, my social media life is dull yet my real life is so vibrant
-able to witness the rose moon eclipse right at the secluded beach (right beside kota beach) while listening to bjork's vespertine performance live in paris
05/25
-i discovered a new spot somewhere westward of the coast, right after passing by the lagoon where you can see black and white egrets.
-the sunset was spectacular and the melancholic shores overwhelms my heart.
05/24
-breakfast at kota with cari. went swimming and saw potential group of gay boys. just interlocked eye to eye looks with few of them, the view of their chest and armpits makes my eyes and mouth water.. ^_^
-supposedly we should go for one bottle of beer by the beach, but i saw mark opada and he invited me for a cocktail by the bar. but something came up with mark, so carri and i end up having two of these vodka or white rhum with calamansi and had play billiards. carri won and treat him for lunch
05/22-23
-the weekend was such a blur.
it was so fast and we are mostly wasted
-sort of spent it mostly at the sandy pub where we had good music and overflowing of beer. carri end up as a dj where we dance all night long.
-had breakfast at anika's and went for a swim. saw a cute bat fish. it reminds me of my childhood memories as its my favorite pet.
05/21
-my extra VL for this day was not approved, so i end up working. still nursing a mild hangover
05/20
-had so much good time by the sea and in the island, to the extend im living the moment and just not thinking or doing anything. even writing this journal seems to get off my head.
-spent the sunset at KOta beach and had tequila sunrise and wash it off with palesen
-carri and I thought that was it but we passed by a lade back spot where they got cool music and affordable beer so, it rained so hard. as if summer is bidding farewell/
05/19
-we have faced so much challenges. now we are able to get an accommodation which is suitable for a budget and such a bargain, we able to get a 600/day airconditioned room just right at the back of sophia's
-finally had a great restful sleep
05/18
-days passed by so fast and there's so much going on that i only updated from 05/14 up until now
-done my assignment with prof. Nestor Castro. and right after submitting it online, went and have a dip. It reminds me of the 2 week vacation on a murakami story wherein the characters just have this mundane sessions by the beach for two weeks and all they have to do is lazed around the shore or have their usual laps by the beach
-had carri try cebu lechon for the first time, had thick face and asked from a lady right next to our cottage.
05/17
-carri had a great night and had some cuddling by the beach, while me having a convo with this young dude ab
-spent my mornings swimming through crystal clear waters of sta. fe. In between having good seafood and some drinks. This is the life
able to work not from the office or home, but in a resort
i love the seashore as our working environment
this is what im talking about
05/16
Carri and I made it to cebu and eventually in Bantayan island at around 6pm. almost not able to get entry since we need a bar code from a local tourism admin. Stayed in my usual favorite: Sofia's at beach front. reminds me of sugar beach days when we only have our banig for the whole week.
-me and carri got some drinks had this midnight swimming, its such a euphoric bliss
05/15
-finally got our test results and yyaaaass
its negative for covid9 now ready to travel to cebu
05/14
im starting to get the jitters
i hope everything went well with our cebu trip
05/13
-send my gifts to russ, my first was a whale fin plant, now sent my voltaic neon philodendron. I hope he will like it
we also kind of catch up over messenger, but as i said, i rather be in an "actual presence" communication rather than virtual
-finally meet Chris A, the manager from UHG
he drove over and we had it at the shopping center parking lot, he's too nervous doing outdoors
05/12
time flies so fast
not able to catch any moments of it
05/11
-got news from vera that mark duane just passed away due to brain tumor. life is really too short, reminded me to have that appetite in life:
05/10
-met carri at east ave med center for our swab test
spent the whole 8 hours just to get a schedule and we were given a date which is too close for our departure date. Im praying so hard to make sure the results can catch up with our flight which is the same day and just few hours in between
.. gosh
05/09
-spent mother's day with fam
-watched queen mary jane of scott
-gave mama a massage and advise her how to take care of her knee and mental health.
05/08
-able to attend a bjork global party via bjork vault of dark memes group page, was only able to get in at the final moments, saw some baking, while some were doped,
-woke up with a heavy heart. I dunno if its with the hot weather or because i still dont have any constant. am i now getting tired of always creating new experiences? i am need to be boring? or am i getting bored being bored? stillness, the remedy for languishing.
-went jogging/cruising just earlier and i happen to pass by my luck. sucked two hung guys, one which looks like derek monastario (with his handsome face and yummy chest) i swallowed his cum. fuck that was hot. at this point, what do i need a bf for?
-on my way home, just passed by the beautifullest, saccharine smelling and yummiest mango freshly dropped from its tree (thanks to the birds or bats which knows the best fruit), i had it for dessert tonight.
05/07
watched andre's vlog who is now working/living in japan. In my mind, i might end up migrating to new zealand or canada? i dunno, my mind at most of the times, as malleable and as unclear as a mud.
-got caught by an officer due to violating curfew hours for eating out. i got a ticket and penalty for 300. I dunno if i have the time paying it. in my mind, its petty price compared what the govt is really into. which is the hefty cost of vaccine. this is the time when solution is the root cause of all evils
05/06
-i guess it was the hottest day today
im literally melting
-i could only wish summer be over, or spent it somewhere cold or breezy. day dreaming i could work remotely lets say in baguio for the summer, then bantayan, manila very quarter. then 1 quarter spent lets say ina foreign land
-so now having a wish can be granted: i booked a ticket and will stay in cebu for a month
05/05
-finaly able to set up a mini water fortress for my favorite pies and cakes, and noticed lots of them drowned trying to reached it. some of them i help out to leave and live ... as they crawl towards their home, im wondering they might able to tell their great great grand kids that in this room, there live a human who eat the tastiest goodies. i felt like a living legend =)
-remembered this: Quarantine An Ant From Its Whole Colony | Sad Reaction
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=74xygxN7h_Q
-quality sleep matters. i couldn't wait until i could switch to a morning shift--although i also wish my salary grade wont decrease.
05/04
-had a system issue the whole day at work. so in between trouble shooting with an IT I do my usual midnight walk and self made snacks at the pantry
-saw this moreno guy in the pantry. have him noticed that ive been noticing him. lol
-chester, from Laguna, the UP film guy.. one of the reason why i get back here in QC made paramdam. i dunno what are his intentions and plans in life. he knows im willing to wait for him and push for a new level. but part of me is kindof hesitant. as one time he let me watched a film about polyamory. or am i too paranoid that its the way he want me to know who he is and he is polyamorous. ewan. my mind is adrift once again.
05/03
i really love having a good nights sleep and waking up with the gentle sunrays filtered by fruit bearing mango and santol trees right outside my windows.
-having lemon water first before coffee regain my sand-fly infected skin and also detox from 2 weeks successive drinking session
-was moved by maria reesa's speech in accepting the unesco awards for journalism
-im now doing this journal straight from a laptop rather than my phone =(
05/02
my 4 day rest day will come to an end
me not having a proper phone makes the day feels longer
i dunno if its a good thing or i really should fix the screen on my phone..
-felt incapacitated as much of the apps and lifestyle are integrated with the apps but somehow it veers me away from social media the very least
05/01
-rewatched memoirs of a geisha, still it evokes so much emotion. i was struck how the narrator, tells about scraping the word loneliness as it cant be written neither be read as it has to be felt.
-still had hangover from carri's brother's bday.
-can't get over with her cousin's masculinity, he's hot and he offered a puff of a good shit
