Wednesday, September 30, 2020

09/2020

 


09/28
im really seloso

i guess i got it from my father
was supposed to meet ice luzon
but it appears he already hooked up with someone
i hated him
to the extend i punched him in the stomach when i passed by him at the University ave

but later that night
we saw each other again and explained that he is with his ka tropa
he made out by the bushes under dim lighted moon
my anger dissipates together with my fulfilled horniness
i really like him

09/19/2020
attend my first webinar
with vina and christine
it was affective
in a way it kind of feels like attending a live actual physical symposium

it feels intimate and interactive compared to any diy video

i also felt empowered since it taught us how to be empowered and self determined.

09/13 til.one week
still hurt and felt broken

09/12/20
was hurt with saeed knowing he have to cancel our session for someone else
blocked him entirely in telegram

Monday, September 28, 2020

Friday, September 25, 2020

Wednesday, September 16, 2020

sailing on: towards becoming an Art Teacher





This picture was taken on a trip few days after my birthday and right before the pandemic.

Looking back, the image tells so much about my current situation, foretelling the events that were about to happen.

I'm seeing myself sailing into the untamable sea, of which there are so many factors that are beyond my control. Sailing through the waters, it might get wavy, turbulent and as uncertain--- depending on the weather.

A mentor once mentioned that rather than being anxious of the things beyond us, focus instead on what we can control: mainly our response and attitude towards a circumstance. One can always perceive several things, if this is an ominous trip or an adventure, well, what I consider it to be is a journey of a lifetime.

This journey could be way beyond me but there's no going back this time. After series of self evaluation and realizations, I finally come into decision to become a teacher, to consider it as a career and not just a job, a calling. 

Getting  through this will definitely send me to a distant shore of potentials and opportunities that i might have missed and later regret if i haven't taken this journey.

As a Student Teacher, my goal is to really experience what is really to be in there, not just seeing the boat, but to be on the boat and learn how to "sail a boat". With the help of a skilled instructor (in this case, our coordinating teacher), who can guide the basics and complexities. Hopefully, as most beginners, I can shove off on my own after ample days of lessons. 

I am bracing myself with all the changes and updates,  specially during this difficult time of pandemic. I am up for the challenge and motivated with the idea that the effective teachers are those who can adapt. 

All these being said, what i'm certain about if we get through this, "together",  achievement is definitely in the palm of our hands.


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