09/2026

30/09

-cathy brought me to McDonald's where they work and saw dani. He is indeed very guapo and charming.

-dani took me to the airport and as always, airports are the saddest place on earth (please see blog entry dated 30/09)

-back in madrid, back to my new reality 

29/09

-dani came by in greifswald, had sex and slept with him.

-bond with his bestie and colleague, a kapwa Cebuana: Cathy 

Then later bond with ishna

They toured me around multiple facets of berlin, from the bombed church tower, to 

We went to this beautiful beer garden and had some drinks

-cathy and ishna talked highly of Dani and the more 

-saw Dani in his workplace and got touched by his generosity 

27-28/09

-beach walk in eldena and Eisenhein park 

-finished reading the coordinates of happiness 

-simply decided i wanna devote myself to Dani. Ever since we are together, i just want to be faithful to him.

-despedida dinner and bond with max

26/09

-max and i drank and danced the night away.. it was one of the best party nights we have ever.

-i was also super drunk and expressed my gratitude and love to my best friend maxie bella

-from Berlin, we go straight to poland. We had coffee at mama. We walked along the patio and went to the beach 

-it's one of the most romantic walks I have with Dani. I mean for 2 weeks of almost seeing every other day, i totally felt inloved with him. I am very excited and looking forward to what awaits us.

-i am the happiest, i cried 

25/09

-danilo came in Greifswald and simply slept with me. Look at him while sleeping.. cuddle and recharge myself in his warm embrace. Our sex was also good. I came twice specifically after i massaged him.

-party with max in Berlin 

Street music

Gay disco

24/09

-watched spark camp season 4. Ignited back by its usual thrill. 

-Bond with Maxie bella. Went walking around innenstratt and have beer in the park. We just simply catch up and simply live the moment 

23/09

-im in cloud 9. Date with danilo in Poland. My 2nd time.. but we just simply take advantage of the good discounted price in Lidl 

And ate at McDonald's. We also hold hands while in the train. Never felt this warmth for a long time.. able to simply rest my head on his chest. 

22/09

-just simply rest

21/09

-had one of the craziest and fun bathhouse experience at der boiler. I used my remaining stash and reminded myself to take it easy. I only have one admin but later i found a gang who do ghb and some lines. I just do ghb and it reverberates my trip. I had one of the most handsome, hung and sexy hunks that night. My highlight is when i get gangbang at the porn area. Meeting this middle eastern couple at the jacuzzi and having a foursome kissing. Then got fucked with this handsome arab. 

My hole is totally destroyed specially with this hard fucker who i thought was a bottom. We closes the place and we really had a great time.

19-20/09

-met Daniel Rinaldo. He is Italian living in Berlin. We first chatted in grindr after a whole day of not meeting anyone for hook up. 

So this one is for The sweet. I thought he was just a passerby but we connected and he made the effort to visit greifswald the day after we chatted. We had coffee at the old square and i was mesmerized by his smile. I though he is grumpy by the looks in his pictures. I felt relaxed and radiant with him. I really like him. I thought he doesn't like me and I'm preparing myself with my downfall once he have to go back to Berlin after coffee. But no. He went with me at my favourite spot and we made love. He came rapidly through my mouth and wasn't able to fuck me. But it's totally fine and i simply swallow it all. We also had a great walk just outside the train station.. had sweet moments under the sun and we kiss. Now i can relate again with the lovers in the park. I felt the thrill and the wind.

17-18/09

-i got crazy with the hairy bear arab doctor. I got so obsessed with hid dominance that when he didn't come I became berserk. I guess it is also co related with my anxiety with my house search in Spain. I tried yoga and meditation, it helps a little. But still i had this unquenchable thirst for him. Then finally i was able to meet him and get spanked by him. It is crazy when you get drawn to this kind of fetish (bdsm) it really gets into you.

-went to elisenhein and had this forest bathing. Marvel the century old trees and did a tree hug and energy recharge. Felt blessed by their stability and strength though the seasons.

-sunset at eldena. Also read some chapters of gian lucca's coordinates of happiness by the beach. 

-had a few drinks with maxie Bella by her balcony here in Maxim-Gorki-Straße 4B and we caught up with our days. It was a marvelous moment.

16/09

-another fantasy fulfilled, had this encounter with a hairy bear arab doctor. His smell and bearded face really aroused me. We did a lot of kinkiness such as golden shower, spitting and submission. He is indeed a dominant top. I came tremendously

14-15/09

-finally tried der boiler berlin, it is indeed a huge place for cruising and it's filled with folsom attendees and visitors. amazing and beautiful people. I was super tired from the long trip from greifswald and i felt powerless. So i did my usual thing and start power cruising. My buena manu is from a tall hunky German who met me in the steam shower room. I saw him again in the lighted area and he is indeed good looking. Then came my highlights, one dark hairy guy who he really likes to be with me (as we did multiple rounds) and one gigantic cocks from Argentina, and my fetish armpits from Turkey. Really good.. it is all worth it. I also wind down in tiergarten where i felt déjà vu in this cruising spot. I got fuck by this money guy but i already said i don't have extra money and he fucked me for free.

-my sex and porn addiction is on a high again

13/09

-so i went back to eldena bay and was about to start a day right with gelato and coffee in this old town, i already licked my gelato and my coffee is already made when the lady pointed the signage "cash only" in german. Oh well, how would i know?! My ears is warming in panic since i don't have cash and the lady behind me offered to pay. Surprised and super grateful, i also offered to payback via PayPal only to find i have zero balance and for the life of me i cannot transfer from my euro account to this dollar account. Anyhow Russ, as usual, always got me. So my day was ruined but kind people are around me.

12/09

-felt complicated . No work, no actual place. Waiting for my amnesty application. Been traveling but no earnings. I have so much but i also lack as much. Gratitude gratitude gratitude 

Done back to basic yoga with beath and flow

https://youtu.be/4f6aQTe8hhU?is=sAloL4ZU6AR8etmW

-meet stadpark thick guy again and really see him and make love to him. I really like him to the extent im becoming awkward. Same routine as i had with my usual pattern

-finally meet tobias (pls see ref)

He is visiting his father here in greifswald and he splash me with his cum

-it seems that what i consider highlights are my sexcapades. I dunno why but it's the only thing that keeps me sane and alive these days. Im thinking I should have a different blog/journal section dedicated for it.

09-11/09

-i met stadtpark thick guy again. But he brought another top for threesome. He is my ultimate type so i got more pleasure from him and i really miss his juicy meaty thick dick. If only we were alone i could have kissed him 

-meet this visiting Swedish guy. He actually looks good in person than his picture. I blocked him but he found a way to meet me 😅

-went to tinkergarten in berlin and meet two guys. everyday i meet someone for a fuck either at their place or at the park

-i felt the guilt in so much pleasure. I dunno why.

06-08/09

-spent most of the time to exploring greifswald where maxie bella is based like the harbour and eldena. Greifswald is a town full of medical interns and hospital staff. So I managed to meet my first German in this area. One is a resident german doctor and then the other is a syrian medic. Then the hottest is this hairy thick guy where we had outdoor fun in stadtpark (see ref)

-meet Maxie Bella's Filipino colleagues and prepare Italian dinner for them. Had a great time with kapwa pinoys

-meet Philip, a Portuguese working in greifswald. We had a great talk and some sex. Also had a shower and wine together. He served a good wine which vineyard close to his hometown. Real good connection.

-walk around Steinbeckerstraße, an old quaint cobble stone town with old churches and universities. I felt this time stopping, wine drenched, dusk moment

05/09

-early flight to Germany. Good thing i made it to the airport on time. Had this wonderful sunrise overlooking the Venetian waters. Totally a sight to behold. Tempted to take a photo of the sun but i simply smile and honor its sacredness.

-i was in Italy early this morning and Germany this afternoon. Being awake in two countries is insane.

-such joy in meeting maxie bella after a long time of assuring her she can make it in Germany. Now she's here and I'm here visiting her. We started to roam around Berlin center 

We've been wandering in asia, now this is the beginning of our European wonders.

03-04/09

-as usual, time flies with summer camp. We were finally done with our final presentation and said goodbye to my kids

-went for a pizza party with the host families and my co camp facilitators by Thursday and got wine with shari, luis, bea, paolo, abi and Olivia on Friday. Had wonderful time to connect with my colleagues but clearly, im drained.

-to cap my stay in Padova Denise reserved a table for us for some authentic ramen (one of the best ramen i had in a long time), had gelato and we bike along the medieval town. Just wonderful.

01-02/09

-finally i have the chance to have a walk around the neighborhood here in Guizza, where my host family resides. 

I was able to meet some guys around. Met 2 hung guys on my sept 1; while one husband material on the next day, his name is maximiliano (pls see ref). 

We really connected and really had wonderful outdoor sex. We got lost in the innards and it was like an adventure. Then we kissed in the park even though there were some people and went to my fave spot in parco guizza. 

He said he was very lucky to find me and i said we are both Lucky since he is my type and he kisses really well. What a great way to start my September 

as always, airports are the saddest place on earth

30/09

-cathy brought me to McDonald's where they work and saw Dani. He is indeed very guapo and charming. I felt kilig and lucky to have him. He treated me with coffee and some wraps.   He is very generous and caring.

I waited for him until his out around 3am when he accompanied me going to the airport for my flight at 6am. I felt sorry he had a long day and he looks really tired. But he still want to be with me until the time of my actual flight.

As usual we lean on eachother while we take a ride and simply share our warmth. He doesn't like kissing in public so the least i can do is smell his hair. 

when our bus reached the airport, i thought he just let me in and leave since he really needed sleep. but he stayed with me and grant my request for a goodbye kiss. in fact he did more than that. since he know the area (as he worked in the nearby hotel before) he brought me to this bench in the middle of the vastness of berlin brandenburg airport where we stayed some time in a cold wee hour of early 4am morn. We talked and reminisce the 10 days we've been together and whimper the past joys and the upcoming pains when we will be apart. 

Then he cried.

seeing him crying makes me cry. now, i felt the depth of our happiness. such pure bliss we had. everyday with him is just heaven. confronted with reality, he smiled and like it when i usually make fun in times of dramatic moments. we had coffee and our favorite danish pastry. the lingering bittersweet has to end as my boarding time is approaching. just like the scene when my family in the philippines, and vera's family in norway has this sad parting good byes until you got swallowed by the tunnels of the departure area, we try to keep that gaze, that image, that presence up to the last molecule. Dani was there, looking at me, smilling with sad eyes.

at the point when i can no longer see him, my chest started to gasp for air, as if my lungs are shutting down. that is when i broke down to tears. it poured on me like a dark cold bucket of water. and i cried like i've never cried before, my tears pouring on my cheek along with the passing of time and people.

it feels like im in an amniotic fluid of love and now im birthed in this loneliness of the harshness of reality.  searching for my boarding gate as im wiping myself off, i am consoling myself that hopefully, someday, that moment, when i can see Dani once again,  aiport can also be the happiest place on earth.

08/2026

29-31/08

-hugged valentina and the twins (giada and alice) goodbye

-met my next family Denise, Stefano and their twins Giullio and Ettore 

-this camp is in albignasego, crazy huge camp (200 plus kids) it is way more crazy and draining than folgaria 

-went to Venice for the first time. It's one of the most magical moments I've had. I can't stop myself from smiling 

It's been years since I've been reading and hearing about venice. In 2014, i visited the Venetian hotel in macau and now, im in the real Venice 😻

It's just just crazy. 

28/08

-final presentation day. Just chill and let the kids enjoy their performance.

-really had a great time with shari and mike, also with Barbara and the rest of the helpers.

-it was a great show and we had some drinks in their community park. I had two jugo spritz

-i found myself getting drunk and had this flowing conversation with Paulo, Barbara's son. Who happens to be very intelligent and sensitive at the same time. Our convo includes dante alleggri, mafia and being heart broken 

-then we capped the night with dinner at Valentina's. Where she invited this couple who went to Australia for volunteer work. Good food, good drinks, great time.

-Loris gifted me a book written by an Italian author: Gianlucca Gotto, the coordinates of happiness 😻 

And we had a group picture

So far they are my best host family this year

27/08

-finally meet the hunk hairy Italian indian guy..see ref 

-met one of the most good looking middle eastern ever. 23 years old hung guy who lives near the trento doumo

24-26/08

-felt no inspiration about my upcoming Friday performance.

-good thing shari and mike provided me some queues and now im slowly gaining back my game.

-met a Brazilian along the way on my shopping in Trento. Had steamy hot sex in his basement. He is handsome and has an equally handsome dick. Came as he cum. Finally a good sex (after maximino as he just came and no time for me, no 2nd round as i have to leave for my early flight the next day)

-mikee was a happy crush, before, now he seems very tight and too serious.

-afternoons are spent by attending a bday party (daughter of Brazilian and italian couple) wonderful cake and a multi lingual bday song and greetings (Italian, English, Portuguese and Filipino)

-spoke with Maxie Bella as I felt my social battery is really draining 

22-23/08

-arrived back in Italy and reunited with shari and mikee.

-it is such a relief that there is no longer any border security check from Spain to Italy.

-bond with my new host family. Valentina and Loris, with their twin daughters: alice and giada.

-went back to Trento old town and we had a wonderful walk and had some Matcha drink and wafers by the ancient wall.

-then later we went to lake levico where i had fun times with the kids.

21/08

-went to Alcobendas José Caballero swimming pool with greg, his bf and lyza. It is a beautiful place and I am able to swim in its good quality water 

-finally met maximino after 2 months of not seeing eachother. 

Gave him his chocolate from Norway and we made love.

19-20/08

-these days were filled with heart home cooked meals and bond with Lyza and Greg who generously shared their dwelling with me on my 1 week stay here in Madrid.

-jog with lyza around the Alcobendas neighborhood 

-met interesting guys. One is the super guapo guy neighbour however a drugee. But good thing i met this young hung arabian near the jogging area. And the ultimate was this late 20's versa programmer (see ref) whom i intensely made love with.

-met paula and random new friends Cams and April

-went back to manique's after being away for 2 months. Brought lyza and greg and Paula. We had fun

18/08

-reunite with lyza, but it started with another emergency shocks. My data went off just when im about to meet her. I try finding her in the innards of nuevo ministerio complex gut.

-met greg, lyza's housemate and the three of us had great time over games and dinner

-energy exchange with greg. He did a shinto cleansing/alignment for me and i did my massage/reiki finale for him 

17/08

-its the day for my flight back to Madrid. Had my farewell hugs to vera and the kids, and then madam lasam whom i had a great time. Thomas drove me to the airport and we had our usual mind stirring talk.

-a quick talk with chai and ask her about the whereabouts of ms. Bambi as russ need to get in touch with her. We also told her that we watched the video we made in bantayan. Swift yet sweet.

16/08

-hear the sunday mass and such thrill to see my crush pastor. He is tall, dark haired chubby of an angel daddy. Ahaha. I joke Vera with my musings and told me as a matter of factly that this church allowed gay pastors and same sex marriage. 

-we went to Vaughan lake. My first time to swim on a dark colored lake, it's like swimming on a black tea. I had my initial fear but swimming in suck refreshing waters with William and our new found swim mates was magical.

15/08

-picnick at the enebakk ground where i meet mantis for the first time. He is greek and he is sexy for a 45 year old daddy. First we had basketball together with Thomas and then the three of us had this wonderful conversation from racist Norwegian to greek philosophies up to the spartans. I had a great time with them over beer.

14/08

-just finished rereading murakami's dance dance dance.. and i have this end of the novel high.. i was sitting beside vera as she's reading the bell jar.. she asked for the last word, i read: "it's morning"

A brand new day..

13/08

-went back to myrha and did general cleaning. Psyching myself that It was really about an end for my summer vacation here in Norway.

-spend time with the lasam-bergtun family and listen to their recent Philippine trip

-russ and i had our regular let's update eachother call. We talked for almost 2 hours since it's been a while we had our usual conversation. He went from US to taiwan and Philippines, while me to Barcelona Milan and now here in Norway. We took our time catching up and we also had a card reading. My question was about my transition from aig to Spain and my Italy gig and amnesty application. I got 9 of swords

11-12/08

-spent time with adam

-talked with maxie bella as she is already in Germany. We talked about family problems and just like her, i shared how i felt betrayed and swindled by my own family, i sent more than 15k but it was spent not as what they asked for. And i made it hard for them especially my mother. I hope she's doing well but i just hate the thought of it. Now i get what my father is feeling when he keeps on sending allotments to my mom but most of the money can't be traced. I have to blurt it out with my kuya carlo and Papa. I also hate the fact that it's also eating me down.

09-10/08

-spent time with madam as we roam around oslo. Specially the park beside the royal palace. It looks completely different from winter season.

-we watched thriller movies in netflix. Our favourite was Wake Up Dead Man: A Knives Out Mystery

08/08

-went to bygdøy with madame and simply got amazed by the old town and their mini store

05-07/08

-partee session with adam.. my last was prince james when I'm still in the Philippines. 

-it was one of the hottest sessions i had and one of longest.

-i guess this would be a transition to my upcoming realities

04/08

-went oslo fine art and seen an original takashi murakami and andy Warhol artwork 

-been preoccupied with the spain Italy border restrictions due to the ceuta mass migration incident, as it totally affects my upcoming trip for the 2nd season for summer camp in Italy 

03/08

-got drawn and affected with the ceuta mass illegal migration incident as it will affect my planned trip to Italy for the 2nd season for London school 

-i realised i only have two weeks left here in Norway, but today i will just have a break from my break. As i told Vera earlier, before i usually demand for vacation, now im in constant vacation and i demand for just staying at home. 

-ms. Ivy gave me some recommendations for Oslo city trip, will try to do it tomorrow 

02/08

-went back to sognayenn and had a wonderful walk around the lake. The cruising area is only filled with older men. Until i got this message in grindr from a younger iranian who had this nice handsome dick. 

-adam sent our sex vid. It was hot.

-had this wonderful sunset moment in sognayenn and it's been a while since my last sunset. With all the struggles along the way, what a wonderful way to honor the day and to compensate it with such beauty

01/08

-went to songayene

Had my first cruising in oslo and i was so lucky, i had this almost 7 footer handsome guy. He was only wearing a shade and a belt bag, nothing more.. and i was able to suck him and fucked me. I came so hard in the wild. It was the hottest.