For Gerald

Dear,

I am glad you finally broke your silence. All these times I was just waiting for you to reach out to me, but it was longer than I expected. Our last messages might be too vague and together with other external factors, we might have misunderstood each other.

It was also hard for me for the past few weeks as I was used to being "us" together, but those times when we were silent was spent on contemplating how I am to you and how you are to me. I am pretty much used to being single and as what I mentioned to you before: I always needed a quality kind of relationship. What we had was a rare encounter and I cherish all these months we were together. Heart warming memories keep on coming back to me every waking hours and I smiled mostly since I really had a great time with you. But in the end, I always feel that there is something missing and I don't find that with you. I don't want to blame anyone but I just thought we are not really compatible. I came into conclusion that we are just in love for the idea of "being in love" but we really don't love each other.

I am quite impressed how you handled yourself in the midst of this and please be aware that your pain also pains me a lot. But remember, moments like this makes you stronger, my purpose for you might not be as a good lover but as a mentor. Stop apologizing as no one here is at fault and no one can be blamed as we did what was best for both parties. I wish things work out just fine between us but i guess we are not really meant for each other or maybe we didn't fight hard enough. We might not able to find the answers for that but I always believe that if we really are meant for each other then our paths should crossed again, eventually, in the future.

The universe will always be kind enough and whatever the future awaits for us, let us be comforted with the idea that is for the better. 

sail on,

the "40 days of letting go" project

I came across this website upon having this heavy heart every time I wake up each day. It says: 40 Days of Letting go. I am only on my day two and must say it brings me back to my elements.

40 Days of Letting go: Day 2

masasa, tingloy island

Next to Bantayan Island, this is a great spot where to drop your anchor and feel at home. I consider this shores as my immediate fix for a beach bum escapade from Manila. I could have given 5 stars if only the local government in this area uses the environmental fee to make sure they have disseminate proper IEC (e.g. information, education and communication) on how to manage waste materials. I am aware that the current mayor, Mayor Alvarez is doing clean up brigade but I suggest to come up with an ordinance that throwing non-biodegradable trash is illegal.

I am very saddened how other tourists don't care about their waste , which ends to the beach and making it the widest trash bin. How barbaric and ignorant these people are who drink and leave their bottles and plastic cups on the shore. I wish on their next visit to a different shore, their drunkin heads got smashed right through the bottles with glass splinters on their face and realize they have thrown these garbage that will eventually get back to them.

I always say it to the locals that  tourism may be a great source of income here but they really need to take care of the island as tourism is a huge factor of the island's impending death.