-went to spectroom on a Sunday night. i cannot handle too much alcohol anymore, vomited even half bottle of soju. the performances were good, but the disco room was lousy, as it had low volume, had to wear my earphone and play fossora. that did it. came home with a very bad hangover
-rico is depressed and we are not able to see each other during the long weekend. i even tried to invite him to tagaytay but to no avail.
-im sad, lonely and sex starved.
-my Halloween weekend is really boring. i have 4 days worth since ive got to file Emergency Leave for not having power in our boarding house. was so tempted to do partee n play with this guy from bicol who i had a prior commitment and even pre order our item but it seems its not really our time yet. and besides i really have to save money for my japan trip.
-met this guy from UP as well and brought him at the arki. saw our shadow fucking and it turns me on. he came but wasnt able to had an orgasm, so i went to university ave and saw a guy being sucked as if watching a live porn and thats the time when i came.
-went back home felt better.
10/29
-im suppose to attend Halloween parties and also went to russ' place but there's typhoon paeng. not so good for having a good time as the nation is in a bad shape, korea had stampede.
-black out in our street.
-it was a Halloween night that i just stayed in my room all night
10/27-28
-had my 1st ever root canal session 1
-in preparation for the Halloween, watched Guillermo del torro's cabinets of secrets
-super loving all episodes specially the outside
10/26
-felt kind of drained at work but having the thought of king lifts me up. im glad im still giving this kind of feeling of which i thought i wont be able to experience again after.my exes: julio, arturo and gerald.
-it rained continuously all day and night long. right before dusk, was able to do my once in a rainy moment yoga at the open stage in the heart of the UP lagoon. it was an amazing yoga practice with rain drops all over me.
i end up with enumerating 10 wonderful things in my life right now. and i am filled with overflowing love and so much gratitude..
10/25
-its almost midnight so king and I meet at technohub and we had dinner at kennys then we went to starbucks, where he had his cake and blow a candle after he made a wish.
im so happy that he is happy. found out that he was adopted and he never met nor have any idea who is his biological parents (together with his twin brother)
i just felt this new kind of compassion for him. i kind of want to make up with what he have missed. i wish he could find family with his foster siblings and also with his friends who care about him.
im filled with joy seeing him having his many "firsts" with me.. first dinner kennys and having a round trip plane tickets. for me, i felt so blessed in the past so i just want to pay it forward.
it was an amazing and love filled night
10/24
-creating a letter for king
hello babe,
it's only been days since we've met but it feels like ang rami na nating amazing milestones sa relationship natin. from our very first hoursary sa jolibee cubao hanggang sa super engrande nating date concert with the Philippine Madrigal Singers sa CCP.
i am excited and looking forward to our future, together.
just wanna let you know na im proud of what you have been through, the challenges you have overcome and what you will become ahead of you.
wishing you the best. happy birthday.
yakap,
liyo
10/23
-sunday morning. woke up not drunk on a weekend. went to qc memorial circle and first time to join zumba! the instructor and choice of her latin techno music was reaaslly good! gosh! it was super fun!
-finally meet king. its his birthday week so ako muna ang taya. also he is only been in his work for over a month so i figure that he is indeed financially unstable.
-we went to UPTC at my favorite in marugami udon and then had ice cream under the avatar esque tree and then we had jco doughnuts and drinks. we talk at the Christmas lighted food central. was able to know him more his likes, dislikes, his family, how he lost his parents at early age. it appears we are carrying our individual pains so im hoping we have ourselves to comfort eachother.
10/22
-so im seeing these posts from my college batchmates who are still friends up until now. they are posting their friends celebrations and successes. i admit i feel a bit of envy.. that i also wish i could flex just few of my core friends: chai who already had her acting skills etched and had flown to ireland and Spain, vera who is very much with a stable family in norway russ, performing from japan to Germany, while me making my labada here in quezon city. lols
-work out at the University gyn and seeing myself getting buffed.
-was suppose to spend Saturday night date with king, but he made me wait for hours and even backs out at the very last minute?! i can only make my disappointment gets ahead of me and just simply understand him as he might have some issues such as financial
-i end up sleeping
10/21
-had massage at the neighborhood spa. i end up having a sensual massage. the masseur keeps on offering extra service but u kept on saying that im just for massage. but overall he is a good therapist.
10/20
-mamu's bday. spent it with her, jesse and baby avy
-watched "nope"
-also watched Jung Ji-woo's Tune in for Love. one of those movies na it made me cry as it stir something inside you. it was good.
-king is not responsive and he appears to have grindr account.
-rather than being affected, i end up having 3sum with guys in lifehomes. we made it at the rooftop. finally smelled two pair of armpits. yum
10/19
-tried to recall how long i've been staying here back in manila, was it 4 or 3 years?
it feels like its been ages ago.
so i scour my blog entries and realized i went back here in manila after 1 year stay in my my mother hometown in cebu in 2018.
it was officially in 2019 when i get back here in manila:
http://hotmug.blogspot.com/2019/?m=0
-looking back at my blog entries makes me feel i lived such a long life. never felt so blessed and enamored with such gratitude.
-headed towards ramos village to celebrate mamu's bday. taught her some sleep yoga and some breathing and stretching techniques. also did my personal facial treatment for her. and she ends up sleeping very well.
10/18
-finally meet this beautiful guy from ateneo. he live in one burgundy plaza. we did it in his sofa. it was extremely hot encounter. we msged way. back before and finally tasted him. felt lucky bitch.
10/17
-"bati na tayo ah" rick and i patched things up and we are now ok. im not so sure if we are "official", but i always expect this not to lasts.. i just want to fall too much as i might end up hurting too much. just go with the flow. we even haven't had sex yet. i dunno when. hopefully we are compatible and we turn out to be a great partner.
10/16
-able to watch the madrigal singers live at CCP with Rick.
first i was annoyed as he came in late but he knows how to make light of the situation. good thing we catch the start of program proper.
i love their rendition of ben& Ben's leaves, manila, and kay ganda ng ating musika and some visayan and tagalog kundimans.
-im also glad he knows how to make out of the event and find us the best seats. saw derrick monastario and gosh he is insanely beautiful, it doesn't make me feel horny. lols.. besides im with a date.
-was blessed when the mads did their final pieces at the stairs.
-kissed rick in CCP, by the dazzling fountain, as promised. first time to kiss someone in this iconic spot.
-we went to cathedral cafe, although its closing but good thing we had some last minute order.
-we suppose to have dinner but all restaurants inside intramuros are closing, we had a silent argument as rick was tired and hungry. as i was about to cross the street, rick is nowhere to be found, only to find out he went the other way. i never expected he walked out on me. i felt abandoned. as if a micro eternity, i felt like lyka, the sputnik dog left alone in the galaxy. but in the midst of it. i felt a familiar nothingness as if im in a movie. i felt freer. less tense. so i let him go.
i thought we were over.
but saw him riding the same bus. i kinda laughed a little behind my face mask. then he messaged me and said sorry. he did because he dont want to say something bad. i saw myself 20 years ago when i usually walked out from russ vera and chai as i dont want them to witnessed me turning into a monster.
as written on my horoscope, there will be quarrels.
well tomorrow, everything gonna be alright..
10/15
-date with rick at cubao, we walk on the dark alleys and kissed him. i really find him gwapo. i like everything about him, his smell, his arms and our kisses. we had a drink at oyster boy and then had some ramen across araneta
10/12-14
-had derma, madam as usual is a star, session with her is heavenly
-watched Spanish film festival. my first festival after almost 3 years! watched a documentary about a feminist writer and got emotional with handia.
-had teeth restoration, and found out one of my tooth is for tooth canal. major expenses 😭
10/11
-still felt exhilarated about scoring bjork's ticket live in Japan! gosh... also able to book a round trip flight to osaka. gosh this is happening. i hope there will be no issue with my visa application!
-surprise king/rick about my advance gift for him, i had 2 orchestra tickets for the madrigal singers live in CCP for us this coming Sunday. im glad he says yes 😍
10/10
-i forgot about bjorks concert sale in tokyo 2 days ago, now its sold out! the only seats remaining are in Kobe. did a kamikaze purchase and may mama B's lullaby comforts me:
"from the moment of commitment, nature conspire to help you."
-told russ about this but he seems not leaning towards purchasing his own ticket.
im having mix emotions now.
10/09
-re meet this guys i met before at 2014, also from bicol. gosh he is really huge. was so drunk and had a very good sex with him. i apologize as it was a messy encounter. im not so sure if we can do it again
10/08
-first time to register for gym membership. i have it here in UP gym for 1k/month
-felt sore but i feel renewed
-got free shower since we dont have water sa boarding house
-visited kuya with mamu, avy and jess. watched brad Pitt's bullet train. although it was a quick visit, glad to hug mamu. missing her so much.
-went to the new rapture. became so bored..it feels like a cheap version of o-bar
-roam around and saw this hot guy. thought we could do outdoors, instead i end up kissing him and had dinner with him. we walk and talk under the full moon, until dawn and end up exchanging numbers.
his name is King/rick
gosh he could be the one written on my horoscope!
10/07
-watched leonor will never die at cine adarna. finally after failed attempt in cinemalaya opening night at ccp.
was impressed with the film, its just i dont like the ending. im no film major but been watching a lot of quality films, so if given the liberty to suggest an ending, it would be leonor, laying somewhere, still half asleep half awake, somewhere in the dark corners of her mind, humming.
10/05-06
-fun times at the office, have doughnuts with sir ali, ms lynn, the team and with mark wolfrey
-hosted our daily huddle and had a great time with Mel and Claire.
-we have an upcoming team bldg in Pampanga, hopefully it will be materialized and it would be a blast
-feel productive with my thesis revision
10/04
-completed my 3rd anti tetanus shot
-went for shopping splurge, zara and some skin care in trinoma, never shopped for a long time
-watched avatar on the big screen! totally mind blowing, narrative wise and visually.. aweee moments all through out! specially the night walks at the bioluminescence fungal city
-called in sick for the 2nd day.
as what ive informed russ, the videoke session and bjork moment we had pushes me for a state of emergency. so i declare self holiday today and have that lingering feeling stay with me.
10/03
-im not so sure if i slept or never slept but i kind of woke up at russ'
-spent the morning with russ and lem
-listen to mama B's whole fossora album for the first time with russ. while have all those intensifiers circulating in my veins. i was able to visualize the sonic map for each track. my whole sensory system rejoice with such celebratory masterpiece.
-such a wonderful day, i dont want to ruin it by going to work specially that it put us on a task i didn't sign for.
-i called in sick and TL Rio and boss GP are kind enough to understand what im going through
-i slept the whole night, such a wonderful way to use my first Sick Leave for this year. my spirit, and not just my physicality needs healing <3
-had some series of nightmares, so i wore my amethyst crystals and they went away and i slept, continuous ly, wondrously
10/02
-met a college dude and a jogger but di ako nalabasan.
-msge this guy who ive been planning to have pnp session and we finally did it. he is originally frm iloilo. we had good sex and he is hardy even if he's high. he came inside me and i got so horny while he endlessly fucking me.
-have to leave early as i promised russ to listen fossora together with him for the first time
-im getting slow again. me crashing plus having some weed.
-its fun time with russ lem and josh and kaori
10/01/2022
-watched 3 idiots
tearjerker, crazzy funny, inspiring
-so excited with october, gosh! its my relationship month!
https://www.elle.com/horoscopes/monthly/a61/aries-monthly-horoscope/
