03/31
-meet with maxxx/meiaj the nursing student from novaliches i first met and cried over in 2022
http://hotmug.blogspot.com/2022/12/
-although he have matured for age 21 but he is still sexy. we made love all night and day while f@#$ing h@#$.
-crashing down, we went out for dinner and some milktea. it feels like this is the date we suppose to have 2 years ago. the moment whe.n we tried to confront about what happened last time i just cant help get teary eyed. he was also doing the same thing. there were so much (burried) hurt between us.
then he showed me this video, inspired by eternal Sunshine on a spotless.mind
https://youtu.be/KNtJGQkC-WI?si=ykCY_6LCk8fxY_4Q
03/29-30
-pnp session with 3rdflr.6ft guy. i was super horny with him. he is so sexy with his beard, huge cock and i love his manyly smell of his armpits.
-was still super horny, made f.u with this guy frm sta.mesa i met around 4 years ago. booked a room in cubao for 24 hours and just had endless sex with him between meals and
talks and porn break.
03/28
-supposedly, its markpauls bday. try to celebrate it with fam specially papa is in pasigm but the celebrant himself didn't make it.
-gifted papa my old laptop
-bonding with kuya and jess
-talk and massage mamu. she advised not to travel out of town during holy week. so i stayed here in qc.
03/25-27
-nothing special
03/24
-finally fucked well and good again after weeks of weeks of dry spell 😅
-hot and great fucker. ref: hot teacher he happens to be a teacher who's moving to California. tol bad his flight is this Wednesday.. had sex with him twice after gaving him a massage in between. nice convo and wonderful lessons in between sheets how he manage to move to us after 10 years worth of teaching experience.
03/23
-my dreams are vivid these days. dreamed of being in the US with russ and Jazel kristin. "
its all about the air" "things are looks neat here"
under the bridge scene, crocs eating gigantic tilapia, kids don on marvel superheroes
performing in an almost empty bar.
03/22
-its cloudy and windy, and the air smell of tree blossoming flowers.
-kundilini mild awakening. able to reactivate my chakras with this wushu hash taichi kind of exercises. the caffeine are optimized
03/19
-finally it rained and just so love the smell of wet earth.
petrichor .
-felt productive and can feel im about to ease out.
-had a vivid dream. of russ and vera. vera coming home to the
Philipines and having reunion with her family. russ theme in in early 2010s of guilt trip.
03/18
-silently and internally send blessing to russ for his 39th bday. its a start of a new chapter for all of us four. russ, myself, vera and chai.
-finally able to finish all my requirements for the ProfEx and submitted it all for my language assistance program in Spain.
03/17
-visited chai at their new space and had a wonderful catch up with her and able to bring in so much of my meanderings with her. it is a much lighter and joyful encounter. mark treat us with horton's coffee, while chai brought bacolod inasal with that oh so the yummy turon and we end up schnapping ourselves as we tried it for the very time together. its past midnight so we made a toast and gleefully greeted and snag happy birthday to Russ. this time, chai didn't cry.
03/14-16
-simply had a massage
-walk, meditate and got so into reiki
listened to this online conversation:
https://youtu.be/Zc3EyG58aUU?si=zjZKxBeK_VAm9sv1
03/12-13
-reconnect with papa as he finally have another phone after he keeps on damging his previous devices. felt emotional about reminding my brothers to show love and support to papa as we never know how long he have left in this world.
-never felt so hectic with my life. also worried about my fiances as my cc card auto deduct from my payroll.
-stressed and at the same time felt productive
-it's a new level of stress management and always reminding myself i can overcome these:
pnb online account
letter of intent
dental
profx profile
laundry
new job.
withdraw money ✅
open bank account ✅
letter of recommendation 🙏
lept card 🎉✅
updated resume ✅
im halfway there..
03/11
-finally able to claim my License Card ID for being a professional teacher. felt like i won an oscar. it's not a gift but it's something i deserve since i worked hard for it:
-was also moved with Angela Bassett's interview with Oprah about "knowing it"
-felt excited for our upcoming face to face class at la cathedral. i know i will be super kilig with Gab.IC but im not gonna let it be obvious. i also tried doing derma and dental appointments for this event. im glad this motivates me do take care of myself more.
03/10
-inspired with denma's creative
process:
https://youtu.be/6rDjj4ZnGsw?si=SCj8yTFAjvEqhpiS
-jazel remind me of the new moon. was not able to join her as i went through my therapeutic journey via derma and massage.
-felt i need to finish a lot of task and need to recharge for it.
03/09
-bond with mamu and kuya.
-dance with avey with the animal alphabet.. she able to cast her favorite track on the big screen while we are in the midst of watching live concerts.. amazing gurl she also knows how to have fun
-went to cubao, had some veer and oysters at oysterbar.
-then went to rapture for some tequila and watched wonderful performance. i spent a lot but i really had so much fun.
03/08
attempted to reread murakami's dance dance dance. too vague fore, need to start from the very first book of the rat trilogy.. was it the pinball or wildsheep chase? ive read them but it was ages ago.. everything is like wisp of smoke, though they are as potent as a memory of the scent of old books, that mold-woody smell that clings on those old yellowing pages
03/07
-officially opened my first personal savings account. i guess im not that late for adulting.
03/06
-felt my 5 day long weekend was ending. what did i do? nothing really special. i did sleep whenever i want. finished Reiki level1 and goikg on to level2. walk and lie down under the stars and just let my mind wander aimlessly.
-officially rendered my resignation
-now i have to move my ass and do the things i need to do.
03/05
-its been a while since i kept on romantic dreaming. i dream about gab.IC once again. we went to japan and we went for an intimate film showing. intimate in a sense the audience is limited and it os going to be in an exclusive temple. but for some weird reason i went outside or i let him get inside first since i have to take care of a lot of things. i even tried to bring an egg sandwhich with spam.. eggstop kind of thing. for us. i felt kilig and excited but i dropped my bag and messed up with the sandwhich. i tried to fix it and feeling agitated as im getting late for the film. them i wake up
03/04
-i just felt doing nothing to the extend i felt lazy. had 5 days worth of long weekend but didn't do anything major
-meet kim once again. ang gwapo nya talaga at super yummy. baby boy na top. sarap. he came into my mouth and can't help but eat all of it
03/02-03
-re read / listen to Murakami's dance dance dance. there's really something about the narrative on the girl in dolphin hotel
-im suppose to be relaxed for my 5 day rest but my head keeps on reminding me of what i need to do. anxiety
attacks are real. tried to minimize coffee and do morning walks.
03/01
-watched poor things and was mesmerized by its visuals and meanings. felt like im inside yorgos
-reconnect with maxie bella and recommend it to him. also was touched with emma stone acc
acceptance speech how it was not totally furnished but the sincerity was there.
