-sensing the summer that is coming. i can still feel the coldness of air and the piercing of sunlight. its as if im in the middle of estuary where saltwater meets freshwater
02/27
-now lang medyo bumalik mag align body and soul ko.. sobrang intense ng session ko with saeed.
-i cried with the realization that saeed was always been my crush for 5 years. and that moment with him in his arms was the best moment i could ask for.. but there are things that are not meant to be. and each of our hearts desire will always remain a mystery.
-watched spiderman with Det
-we had dinner sa isawan just across simbahan, we are the last customer. he lost his key we found it
-first time i show him inside my room.
02/26
-sobrang taas ko pa putah.
02/25
-continue catcher and the rye at spotify,
02/19-21
-lobo batangas with team sakalam
joshua's place
punta verde
karaoke
1st time to kayak and see the amazing marine sanctuary just across joshuas place.. amazing
indeed lobo is the center of the marine ecosystems
saw amazing creatures even by the end skirts of the shore
02/18
-det prepared dinner, amazingly he is a creative cook. dozed off in his arms and got awaken by an alarm for work that night. i wish this could lasts. was on time in the office, on time.. its the sweetest thing.
02/17
-found this catcher in the rye being read at spotify, i can even hear the flipping of the pages. such a way to revisit an old book that i read in highschool.
-det is sending this cute pic of his of which i found him so gwapo. bakit ako nakikilig? eeehhhh ðŸ¤
02/15-16
waking up happy to see det and i were now in msgr.. he even bought me a coffee.. ahaha
02/14
-past midnight when i wake up. saw det texted me few hrs ago, but it appears he is already asleep.
-also replied to carri but she seems to be asleep as well
-then darryl msged me and came over at my place. the traces of "im too young but im over worked and have so much responsibilities" is now too prominent. treated him with care and affection. massaged him and for the first time he slept in my room
-as much as i would like to fall for darryl but im not so sure of him.. im not sure if he is the right match.
02/14 part 2
-then here comes dether..
i never felt so kilig like this for a long period of time.. i asked him for a dinner date and he said yes.
when was the last time i went for a date whom i really like, 2018? gosh, that was 4 years ago.. and im having this jitters while preparing or dressing up for our 1st dinner date... ahaha
-we met at technohub and we dine at kenny's.. it went well and we had so.much to talk about.. i feel at ease with him and i find him intellectually and emotionally intelligent.. so i guess he is a better match
-we had a walk around technohub and show him my favorite spots
-then we also went to macauimperial and we walk along University ave.. we pause for a breather at my favorite tree where he we lay down and he played jeff buckley's "lilac wine"
-since i still have work that night, we part ways after seeing the oblation.. it was a sweet night.
02/13
-had breakfast with Det then watched rupaul all star s.16? and as usual on his 4th orgasm thats when i got to go
-went to pasig and spend quality time with mama, we had pedicure and had her hair done. and finally was able to teach how to prepare golden latte for her knee. we also walk towards yakal street and have this usuall halo2x it was a nice bonding even tho her heart was bleeding because of my siblings substance issue. gave her some advice how to deal with it. and im glad she let it all out and that alone can ease her suffering..
-watched the house of gucci with my sister in laws however im so sleepy so i have to go home.
02/12
-spent time with Det
we ordered pizza and pasta frm friuli and brought him the wine and rib eye steak. we tried to watch lu over the water but we got drowsi because of the wine and made love 😅
02/11
-i usually spend my mornings along University ave and this time, i dont cruise so much anymore and dont open grindr .. given that im always with Det and i want to respect what i have with him.
-my eksena at the University ave is just to simply walk and do simple workout, order foodpanda and eat under the tree. its a great welcoming for summer.
02/10
-watched dance of the 41.. Alfonso Herrera is so gwapo noh?! but her wife's character is so heavy and well played.. i am so impressed
-have not attanded spring film this year, so to commemorate i watched zang Ziyi and eddie peng short:
https://youtu.be/mNucIO9bfIA
02/09
-rewatched pale moon
-listen to chai's gusting in a podcast
https://open.spotify.com/episode/5DvYOl49dkB8vxdKYbTNO8?si=9XRQNX5hRjuu7Z4FgWh6hQ&utm_source=copy-link
-zain is inviting me over to bora, his invitation is so tempting but as usual, he is always a douche as he want me to bring over some item of which puts me in total danger. he is stupid. gago talaga.
02/08
-just sleep and rest well
without thinking of anything that bothers me.
tried not thinking of:
presidential polls
advising for this sem
substitution process
-just complete surrender
-im kind of torn between jake, vlad and dether as my ultimate lover. but tbh i am more drawn to dether.
02-5,6.7
-stayed at dether, the guy from romblon.. we watched "Luca" and Adeles concert at Griffith observatory. i felt ive been with him for three days or even more 😅
just cuddling and love making.
02/04
-work and academe stress
-also went to ortigas to visit one corp center only to find out my previous employer already shut down
-went to memory lane along emerald street
-drinking session with carri after shift. it was a nice session
02/03
-meet deter, an engineer from Western Visayas and gosh hes only 22 and he is so hot. its one of those romantic encounter and not just sex. but i dunno where this leads to
-also meet Vlad the stylist, he is now in nova.. he just moved there so i brought him some food and we do house warming.. literally 😅
02/02
-my four day weekend has come to an end and i am so wasted.
-now i dunno if i felt recharged to get back to work and also my enrollment.
-have system issue
02/01
-im still super horny with jade and suppusedly have sex with doc albert but he happed to have a nose job and penile surgery. so what we did is just sleep together 😅
- was able to attain 10 hr sleep.
-still felt my long weekend is boring as no chance of traveling or head out of town.
-supposedly just sleep or spend time with maxman but it turned out to be pnp with him.. it wasnt as intense as the first but we had joy ride in the middle of the night and just body charge with him
