31/01
-went to málaga and able to get my TIE card.. finally.. after 3 or 4 visits? And after 5 months? Feel legit as a spanish resident, although it expires when my classes end this May, but let's do one step at a time. I felt jubilant and accomplished
-but before that i had another bad experience with orange mobile as my reload didn't go to my monthly plan, my 10eur depleted in a few hours rather than a month. Got no data, no maps, Got lost in malaga and was very late for my scheduld appointment at the departmento de extranjero.. ahahah . Panic attack!! but im glad i made it to plaza Azana, was able to get in by the ever merciful police woman and recoger mi tarjeta 😅
-able to get inside the Pablo Picasso museum for free!!! That alone is worth more than 10eur so i felt my loss was just nothing
-also got above alcazaba and have a nice view of Málaga. Just a wonderful way to end the 1st month of the year
-then later meet with ENZO and his landlady Sonia, wonderful woman.. reminds me of ms. Bambi vibes
-slept in Rincon
30/01
-meet Teo, the guy from Paraguay.. same as before,we have intense love making. Its amazing how his mother is strong enough to work at 72. I pray she can then later process her pension.
27-29
-integrated yoga as my initial warm up during my classes with andrea and ana. They are both siblings from Sevilla
-meet lucas, i really find him guapo and i could only wish he can sleep with me after we have sex
25-26/01
-watched bjork cornucopia apple music live with russ. Also watched bjork's interview with zane lowe
-3way call with russ and vera.. talked about the people we know who passed away.. the one who turned off themselves and how i inserted chai's reaction on what one of her acquaintance from bohol. Also asked them how they navigated with it and how we manuever our perspective on their passing.. it was a good talk while we do kitchen wars..
-re enkindle my session with Isabel and coach her with her upcoming Cambridge exam. She gifted me an egg chocolate from Ireland.. she is so sweet.
-done grocery at carrefour expreess near the old church and take advantage of the 50% descuento.. i felt abundant as i see my ref filled with food.
-rewatch bjorks live performance, cornucopia in lisob in full clarity on the big LCD toshiba screen
-what a nice weekend indeed
20-24/01
-i really feel I'm living the life.. living alone in a 3 bedroom 2 bathroom middle estepona apartment, warm baths almost every day, beach during during the weekends on a mild tropical-winter weather, good sex with hot Mediterranean guys and good food.. although my salary is not that much but i am able to do what i love to do and can take a nap and sleep as long as i want to. God is good.. feeling blessed.
-gibraltar guy cannot be with me since he have family get together. I missed him.
-day dreaming and thinking of Enzo. Felt excited about his upcoming bday celebration in Rincon and in Nerja
-met this Peruvian guy named Teo, i like him..he reminds me of Noel. Chubby with a distinct musky scent. We had an intense and hot love making. I felt a connection with him. I cannot wait to see him again soon.
18-19/01
-weekend get together with lyza and alex. My Cebuano tribe here in Spain. I am so happy to get ourselves together again after our last reunion last October. Chill and relax here in Estepona, show them around and host them at my apartment. Cooked for them. And drink with them hygge style.
The morning after we had French toast for breakfast. We also went for the beach. Extreme waves crashing, wonderful sun bathing.. relaxing massage.. ahhh.. the wonders of a blissfull weekend.
17/01
-felt so down. Tired and defeated. Again. Not able to get the teaching position in Estepona as i don't have my work permit yet and then I missed my appointment to claim my TIE card. I'm so tired and could have used the 22eur for groceries to host for this upcoming weekend get together with lyza and alex.
-comforted with the idea that my breakthrough is coming and its just a matter of few days and should be able to get through this series of unfortunate events
13-16/01
-received a group letter from my students in 3'a
The first time i had it was also in highschool.. it's nice that they are experiencing it with me.
-me and chai had this late night talk again and how she dealt with her past traumas. How it affects her and the people around her. I am so amazed how i also dealt with my own traumas, past (j rojo) and new (mr. Fahim).. how i let karma just let them have what they've done and also simply get excited of the rewards i will be receiving for not losing my faith to humanity and to God almighty..
-simply chill at home and do some diy garnishing for a michelen kind of plating
-so engrossed with the concept of hygge.. even taught it to ana, my interior designer student
-day dreaming. I am wondering who i should be in love with:
Lucas, the Spanish lover guy. The Gibraltar extreme sex guy.. or Enzo my crush.. my filam travel buddy, of which we have so many moments together..
12/01
-had a great talk with chloe and mamu. We able to catch and im so happy that my niece is growing as lovable and understanding person
-my mom showed me her garden as i showed her the garden i am taking care of here in my rented apartment in Estepona
-the weather is so beautiful, I went to the beach and although it wasn't planned but took a dip since the water was so clear and the sun was so bright, it made me able to withstand the 16'c water
11/01
-Waking up with Gibraltar guy
It's nice to hug someone while sleeping and in this cold winter
-had some "me time" and even had some body scrub and hot bath. I felt i went to a spa. With the Mediterranean diet im having i felt my body is glowing and rejuvenated
-saw my first shooting star. I was only able to mutter hukarasha baraba of which I can only wish for breakthrough and greatness..
09-10/01
-i have this notion of going back to the Philippines, but Always remembering that Someone says, all you have in the Philippines are your family and some memories, other than that, it is not worth coming back.
-also remembering a student saying, andito kna eh, magpatuloy kanalang dito (in Spain)
-met lucas and did it at mercadona but it didn't go well..
-watched back to back: end of the century (2011) and the, weekend (2014)
-weekend reminds me of p.james.. of which i felt something grand, and only for me to migrate in Europe
08/01
I had the most amazing hot bath ever . I made the water level up to my entire body until i attained dead ears . It reminds me of my floating sessions in bantayan and in boracay and also able to traverse my sensual memory back to mambakul in Bacolod where i felt the warmth of the water feels like a mother's womb. Now i understand why there are people who choose to take their lives this way.
-fahim or rahim malik reminds me of jane rojo who accused me and took advantage of me.. well, karma has its way to get back.. i also remember how i got julio, my first ultimate love life and how im able to get financial breakthrough after that unfortunate incident.. i claim love and abundance..
07/01
-i still have that holidaze laziness in me
-got powers from my students
-made a good presentation with Ignacio in front of the German guests
-it's a wonderful start of work day
06/01
Having ptsd attacks again from my recent scam with fahim and his furniture shop. I always drown it with the thought that the blessings i have outweigh the grievances. May karma take its reign.
05/01
-opened my gift from my landlady, maria
Such a way to end the long tradition of 3 kings
-met Lucas, as usual he is so handsome and we kiss intensely. But i still keep on thinking of Enzo
01/04
My norway trip and the long vacation when i got back here in Spain was definitely life changing.. it teaches me to calm down.. to be not always on the run.. that life itself will sort itself out..
02-03/01
-enzo helped me intensely
-kept on thinking about Enzo, just realized how much monents we've spent together
01/2025
Welcoming the first day
of a new year
Clouds and rain showers..
Mediterranean
River meets the sea
A silverlining
Hope and prayers
A meditation
And here, appears the sun.
He rises
A salutation, by the beach
A View: Rock of Gibraltar and Morocco
Flying sea gulls
Waves crashing
Butoh dancing
Nesting
Wading
Simplifying
Wandering
Wondering
On: no one and nothing..
