30/31/07
-watched the full moon outside the attic's window. It is rising above the pine trees on a still bright Norwegian summer sky.
-done my sleep yoga and realised that most of my revenge wishes came true.
Usually if something bad happens to me, i always demand for revenge wish. I remember someone stood me up on a sexual encounter and i ask for hot 10 guys. And yes, i was able to experience having sex with not just 10 but more hot guys from Barcelona to Milan.
-spent time with Adam. He is extremely hot in his early years. Now he kindly look a mature version of Zaeed/zain my half Lebanese lover in the past
29/07
-can't get over with almodavar's the room next door.
-went yoga outside and realised im all alone in this spot.i felt like a miniscule in this vast greenery.
-felt lazy the whole day.
-finally met the local guy from ennebrakk, i like my view us as i sit on him and he fuck me. My ass looks so hot with the tan line.
-have a walk and semi jog at the farm. Last time i went there it was all covered with snow. Im amazed with the white cows staring at me as im wearing white as well. The thought that i might be a cow before and all i do is eat grass whole day. That's why i can't stop myself from eating.. lols. The way they look is as if telling me: why are you there? You should be with us. As if I'm a cow donning a human skin.
27-28/07
-send madam lasam to the airport as she's heading to Iceland. Im happy to hear all her stories and how she able to materialize her European tour with her long time friends
-met this arab near lillestrom. He is handsome and hot but I wasn't able to cum.
-then met adam, a half Turkish. He is hot and very good in bed. We converse and made love all day long.
-rewatched netflix series: "from the scratch"
25-26/07
-still disappointed how my mom spent the money i sent her for a mobile phone and not for her trip to samar. As usual, she always has these sorrowful excuses that i end up accepting it with mercy.
-bonding with madam lasam as we took a ferry trip to longayen and had coffee right across the national theatre
24/07
-went to oscarsborg with mdme lasam.
-rewatched closer. I just so love that walk, while listening to blowers daughter
22-23/07
-been staying here in norway for a week but it feels like im staying for a month
-soak in the sun and simply be present with Vera and her family
-read book, sunbathe, and dream
21/07
-alissia's bday
-get together with Thomas's family. Nice talk and bond over dinner outside the terrace.
19-20/07
-blueberry paradise
-ski bonding with vera, talked about the uncertainties of afterlife.. after creating family bonds then what's next? Theorize about the patterns of our cell, nature and the universe.. the planetary alignments of which our paths should get cross after several years, may it after 1 or 400 years
18/07
-still can't get over my italy bathhouse experience.. the viscosity of the memories made me feel like the dolphin hotel experience on murakami's dance dance dance
16-17/07
-always haunted with what happened in Royal Hammam Sauna. My encounters and bloopers of cruising while high.
-had a wonderful talk with madam lasam, just how we talk 25 years ago, way back im still in my high school. When we have coffee and bread on a slow mornings.
-bond with the lasam bergtun under bright summer sunshine
-midnight talk wih Vera. We talk about our dreams and our realities
15
-flight going to oslo via Katowice. I am still wondering why humans are smelly by default.. it's maybe, or simply, because we are living and dying at the same time.
-boarding for katowice, it seems that im the only Asian on board
-having the worse airport nightmare.. and what makes it more terrifyingly sad is when i have to let go of my cup from camp sawi.. a decade long cup.. i got emotional and cried. oh well, maybe i have to let go of it as im no longer the "sawi" person anymore 🥹😅😻
-feel just right with the lasam.bergtuns
The flowers the summer vibes at their cabin like house was just wonderful.. it always feels like Christmas
-then all of a sudden i remember lucas.milano. he is such an ultimate sex and could have been a lover.. had this limmerence with him and subtle sad longing
14
-starting my day right. Had coffee after a long day and walk by the sunshine while listening to girl from ipanema by Astrud Gilbero.. oh i love those italian starwa
13
-just living my days as if i don't owe it to anyone
-had one of the best sex
*Luca.milano
See ref
*Bio chem
*Arab and latino
*British Young 9incher
11-12
-sauna hamam crazy moment
2 days
10
-done with my final presentation in Folgaria
09/07
-i felt tired..as if i am on my remaining droplets of my social energy. I don't even like to talk around the dining table
-finding joy in having my dessert in our hotel balcony
-i had this magical moment with olivia, elia and tommy.. just laying on the grass under the tree. Smiling and Laughing
-hug the campers as much as i can.
06-08/07
-there is so much going on here in Folgaria camp that one cannot reflect. All the students interaction, sports, theater workshop and all. So i have to remind myself to slow down, again and again. So i stuck up in the room as much as I could.
-as much as i want to retain the magic i had from last year, i am constantly feeling the chaos and pressure of the new camp management so going back for next year is not feasible to me anymore. Plus my disappointment of not seeing jack (prev camp director and my ultimate summer crush of last 2025) tremendously affected me.
05/07
-sunday in Folgaria. Went solo hiking to the Italian flag
-i have this rare moment of a lady bug landing on me.. tried to record it when it's about to take flight but my eyes were so focused on it that i failed to press the record button. Well, it's a reminder that real beauty can be seen in a glimpse
01-04/07
-done with my 2nd week in Folgaria. Weve done Charlie and the chocolate factory. Did jai ho as our final dance
-still having that joy of being part of the theatre and also fostering genuine connection along with my students
-this feels weird, but i felt im in constant vacation and i just want to go back home.
