-what better way crashing than watching hk's film: Amphetamine. its tragic and beautiful
-there was also a line in the movie from the ex gf stating about aging: "woman are like flowers.. while men are like trees"
08/29
-im still super high and horny. got this guy (from UST JR) who just done with their basketball game. i let him drop by the hotel. gosh. he is so hot and he fucked me bareback and breed me.
-we talked and cuddled until the remaining time before check out.
-Answered prayer. i super miss this.
08/28
-6footer 3rdflr guy invites for a pnp.. although im not really in the mood but i kinda miss him so i said yes.
-his housemate is around so we have to do it in a motel in edsa north.
-as always.. i love worshipping him.. smelling yes armpit and suck his huge dick
08/27
-i prayed to God that i miss hugging and cuddling someone.. i miss smelling someone's armpit and feel the wamth of someone's body.
08/26
-it feels like it rain all week
-i felt so sad and lonely
08/25
-i didnt make it in ateneo
-just woke up and went into my emails at ito tumumbad sakin.. saklap!
-i know i will have to go to the process of accepting this sad news.
-good thing anjan si 6ftbabe to assure me.
-also comforted myself my russ' coffee from sagada. if these arent here right now, sobrang lungkot ko 😢
08/24
felt so tamad today.
watched boys lockdown
and then some ep of elite s2
which reminds me of my bagets days parteeing and getting drunk in society lounge.. and thenafter having 2 cups of coffee
and binge over a vogue video collab of john galliano and tomo koizumi (of which im having a huge crush on) it perked me up so i went for a walk just to withdraw
reached UPTC
there's buyonetake one ramen in dotonbhuri with 30% off via foodpanda
but where can i eat it? so asar. so i settled for isaw and some bbq, plus kwek2x and some pusit by the street. yaasss street food trip it is?! wait why am having this conyo like mental voice.. kakainis af talaga tong BL series with keyks and chen.. 😅
08/23
-was suppose to process my TOR and letter of recommendation kaso parati ako tinatamad and the situation of ecq/mecq really make it worse
08/21
-finally our hardlockdown was lifted and our street doesnt have any barricade anymore.. gosh!
-now its time to do alot of errands!!!
-tambak nadin labahan ko 😅
08/19
-continue reading Murakami's killing comendatorre.
-havent able to read it since i put my hands on it last 2018, and since the specialized lockdown and ecq, its a high time to read it.
-was curious with this character named Menshiki whos name means "avoiding color"
-if i have a pet or a child, i wish to name him/her "Lightgiver"
08/18
-raining.. not able to workout outside but gone through art photography inside my room
08/17
-finally met chad from KNL 25, his a shade smaller than me but i find him cute and huge. we almost not push through but i already booked angkas and its no joke escaping hardlockdown just to be with someone these times. sex was hot.
08/16
-back in my room in pio Valenzuela, i miss my room.
-its very refreshing and recharging to be away from here and had some change of environment 😅
-vacation, even if its just nearby, does make wonders
-finished watching errands of the angels of which tells a story of a missionary and somehow inspired me to do and spread the love and it doesnt matter which religion we subscribed to or God we believed in.
08/15
-spent the weekend at pasig and be with my pamangkins.
-just had moment with this fubu i have in ubas st. and also cant get over with the gameboy kokoy look alike na daks.
-still no paramdam frm khrystian and even with the 6footer bagets frm fcm.
-right now, fubu/one night stand is much real while having a relationship is fantasy.
08/14
-had a quick and sweet moments with my manulife batchmate for our 2nd anniversary. josh, carri, rhoda im sick but seeing even virtually was heartwarming specially wenddy who is now in Malaysia
-the usual movie marathon with the fam, watched:
my amanda
the heiress
Beckett
08/13
-escaped from the specialized lockdown in our street and went to my siblings place in pasig
-got a drinking and singing session in lifehomes with new grindr buddies
-woke up with a bad hangover the next day
08/11
-woke up and there's no response from krystian anymore from my viber msges. i never felt so ghosted
-had my personality assessment today for admu i hope im now ready and able to make it for the panel interview
-chatted with russ and comfort eachother, ecq really takes it toll on many of us. he provided me with links of unscreened shorts.
also told him about how denisa reyes encourage me to take up art educationa and now im having this application for admi going on.
08/10
-just done with my demo teaching activity with maam len and the rest of the admu jhs art teachers
-earlier i was in utmost turmoil and i am glad i was able to get through the connection issue.
i couldnt thank enough the facilitators and teachers who bear with me and patient enough to interact all through out my south asian art presentation.
namaste.. 🙏
-had a great conversation with Krystian, for some weird reason i felt so much kilig about him
08/09
-woke up with a dream of Saeed, he is in a room with someone but they are just sleeping with a specialized bed separator.
-i thought my jealousy has completely faded but it still lingers but with hope that his encounters with someone else is less intimate than ours
-im starting to really like krystian.. specially when he sent me an audio sample of his acapella voice . he sang pagtungin by ben&ben
08/08
-our entire street will be put on localized hard lockdown.. like we wont be able to go out from our street for 2 weeks 😢😭
-went for a walk, coffee, cruising and outdoor yoga as if this is my final day
-met Krystian via Facebook dating, an HR specialist from pangasinan. we had a good start for a conversation
08/07
-after a almost a week
and in the midst lf ecq, manage to drop by University ave and had the thrill of cruising once again. met this tall guy who have a very nice chest and huge dick. as in literally humungos, it reminds me of the italian guy i had and half arabian who took me several attempts before he able to get inside me. it was a really good breeding experience.
08/01
-finally met dave the (the guy on 02/17/21)
after half a year, i was able to leave sniff his armpits, lick his nips and penetrated by him. he was huge and get inside me so deep
-the moment we had pops it was an amazing orgasm
