29-30/11
-xmas lighting both here in Estepona and in málaga centro. My auxiliares friends invited me to go with them at the center, but with work and possible stress, I'd rather stay here in Estepona. It's a beautiful night, either place.
-meet lucas, the Spanish bagets. We kinda miss each other as we have all those painful misunderstanding recently but i dunno, my sex with him is just one way, he came, i didn't.. i actually just want to sleep with him but he just want to fuck. I guess we are not on the same page.
25-28/2024
-trying times seems not over. It's one of those days you will be tested. I had a few extra euros earlier but i crave for something sweet/pastries.. upon riding my way back home, my costa del sol card got declined. i ran out of bus load as it doesn't show my previous balance and no way to know ur credits online..o
I only have a euro and some cents.. i am short of one euro.. and i thought I won't be able to get home. Good thing i found monica and she lent me a euro for what i lack for bus fare.
24/11
-i just wanna wallow in silence.. and just sleep longer. Never felt so comfortably nestled in my bed. The mild winter, the thick softness of my duvet, the velvety fleece blanket as my bed cover. I just wanna stay all day at night in my room.
-it's been a while since i went to the beach intentionally.. it was a moonless night. And just feel the cold breeze on my face while using russ' gift: a feathered filled thermal jacket. I am setting myself up for the cold months..
23/11
-had an experience of a la fete de la music on my veranda, as french musicians play live at plaza del ajedrez. How lucky i am having this balcony for myself.. with wine at hand 🥰
22/11
-done marketing strategy with tradexx and simply immersed with my new job in a furniture company. It's kind of my escape from my teaching job. I guess this is one of the best career paths I've taken. I love it.
-talk with russ and i love how we talk about our job and everything in between. Even the iconic movies we've seen. He also shared to me the short film: four unloved women, adrift on a purposeless sea, experience the ecstasy of dissection.
21/11
-met with my Gibraltar guy. I guess this week is love making fest. It's been 2 weeks since we've met so we made up with the time we've lost. He really knows how to satisfy me and touch me and make love to me. Kantot asawa as they say back in the Philippines. I will miss again as he will fly to Morocco for a business trip and it will be long before we can meet once again. We kissed each other good bye, for now.
20/11
-finally make out with hoy.guy. the organic encounter i had at carrefour. He is huge and very dominant as well. And he made my orifice gaped open. He is even much more handsome than I've first seen him, my kind of moorish Spanish kind of guy. Gosh, I'm living the fantasy and I'm making love with it.
19/11
Met melacomes once again. And i guess this time, he impregnated me. 😅
Our condom broke. He is definitely hot and my ultimate first here in Spain. I love the way his scent remained on my sheets. He is my ultimate kind of guy.
18/11
-i have this coolest one on one session with my students. It is an instant interview and just a chill out session. Then all of a sudden we had a great time just simply listening to music. It was one of the nicest bonding i ever had. Pure magic.
-had two cups of coffee. And great pastries from my crush in cancelada. I just felt tired and sleepy. Now I feel energized.
15-17/11
-this is the weekend that i felt its not a weekend at all. I had work. I felt tired but i am grateful. Come to think of it, i am earning extra. Being a secretary at a furniture store and tutorial with Isabel.
-full moon with the diwatitas and had a great bonding session with them.
-call mamu and talk about Papa's birthday
-call max as she is in samal island
-sunday session with rhoda.
-tried to break ties with Lucas as i find him very demanding and i just can't deal with him anymore.. but we end up still chatting. Ewan..
14/11
-2nd day for typhoon aemeth.. classes , again, were suspended.
-good thing the sun shines up and was called by mr. Malik to come to the office.. thanks heaven.. i still get to have this job.
-had a very hectic shift as i have to make bawi about yesterday's workload.. but i felt happy and contented since i earned extra!
-sent some funds to john2x for Papa's birthday.. left a voice msge.. i miss them..
13/11
-storm aemeth. First time to encounter / experience storm here in Europe. There is foreboding fear and tension in the air. Specifically after what happened in valencia.. may god bless us.
-got so horny because of the cold weather. Met this hot couple near Mirador del carmen. Gosh they are both huge and hot. They are my 1st 3sum here in Spain. I came wild.
-carefour is closed. panic buying inside mercadona.
-although schools were suspended but i lost 2 extra jobs today, a total of 45eur, 3000++php that could be added on my monthly payables to kuya carlo.. 😭
-fahim asked me about my VISA.. here we go again, when can i possibly have a decent working permit so i won't be interrogated like this again. I felt heavy and anxious once again.
12/11
-dreamed of tsunami.. i was with my mother and she is holding my hand when felt a shudder on sea earth's mantle when waves are crashing in.. i dunno what it signifies but i came across a post from my socmed feeds that it signifies major changes in life. And i hope it's for the better if not for the best..
-got back to IES tomas Hormigo after 1 week of leave of absence. I really missed teaching and this really makes me feel alive. Able to do a presentation about the flamenco in Japan and even done an improvised and impromptu flamenco performance in the class. I dance with the guitarist playing habanera
11/11
-1 week has passed with tradexx and i hope i did well and i'll stay for good. I need it so i can settle my payables.
-i always have this very heavy feeling inside my heart. To the extent it's hard to raise from bed sometimes.. It's a mixture of exhaustion and anxiety.. was inspired with a post by a foreign medical practitioner assigned in the Philippines when he said instead of saying "i have to do this" replace it with "i get to do this"
Where he emphasizes that we have the option to do the things where our abilities and talents can be of use to serve others.
10/11
-sunday. Talked with maxie bella. Update her with all I've been through here in Spain and also encourage her for her upcoming Germany migration. As always she inspired me, this time its about happiness that is really in the mind. We talk in detail about successful people who are still insecure and wanting more..
-went to the harbour to buy myself new sunglasses.. chicka with chai as i walk there and bring her to my favorite spot at the edge of the port/marina where the bluest of blue water can be found. Inform her about my struggles and my anxieties, just simply rants and also ask for the universe to simply be kinder this time.
-able to fully see and appreciate sunset as it kisses the mountainous horizon.
-watched russ' recommendation: sometimes i think about dying.
09/11
-i really had a tiring week.
Just simply rest and eat well.
watched Pedro Almodóvar's volver
-saturday night, and i have no social life.. was tempted to be with the assistant teacher's group here in Estepona for a karaoke party but was thinking of saving some money. So i went ahead and had my first wine here in Spain instead,a mere 1.5eur local wine which is incccreeeedibly flavorful. I love it and it gives me just the right buzz.
-calle Sevilla guy invited me over to his place. As always i had the 50 shades kind of treatment. He is really huge and i felt my *** gaped wide open. Good thing i came in clean, thanks that my douche order from Amazon arrived (also the first time I tried the Amazon locker)
-find myself walking on a chilly night but my body is warm enough to simply enjoy my midnight stroll.
-finally find the track that haunts me in sevilla:
https://open.spotify.com/track/7G4nrbbBt96SYlafL8rTN7?si=8PkiJS28Rxa5oMOcRfKq8g
08/11
-finally Friday
-another training day with my boss, mr. Malik.
-feels kinda strange but nice to be in an office setting again.
-able to do interviews with Spanish applicants
-missing the students in ies.
-meet Gibraltar guy and did it in a tree lined trek near the highway. One of the hottest encounters with him, yet again.
07/11
-mygehd, how time flies..
Just got another job to fill up my extra free hours , it was tiring than i thought. But thinking about my payables, i cannot complain at this moment. Grateful to have this privilege and given so much favor.
-finally able to process my TIE and it's much simpler than i thought. I should have done this before the empadronamiento, gosh..
06/11
-had my first cooked rice. I couldn't wait for the rice cooker so i had it in a pot. Gosh it's been ages since i cooked rice. So i made sure to blow the steam on my face as an added facial care 😜
-never felt so tired and my entire body specially my hands are aching and scratched 😭
-able to sleep well
05/11
-first day at tradexx. I never knew I had to go through manual work (moving, unboxing inventories which are so heavy and dusty) i got dirty, stinky but i learned. Have to call russ to rant. He says it's really about the rite of passage and i hope this was the worst and i've overcome it.
-russ also mentioned the depression of the stomach. As i mentioned about my weird poop and my messy encounters with the Gibraltar guy even if I cleaned myself well.
-rewarded myself with some pastries from the bakeshop i kept on passing by near calle Miró
04/11
-slept a little from my Sevilla trip and my meeting with my alma mater UPDil.. still cannot believe that I'm able to finish my bachelors even though i thought there's really no need to complete it.
-able to talk with Ignacio about my plan to be absent for the entire week as i have some seminar to attend. He was so supportive and even talked it out with directress Inma. I can only pray to God to bless them more for the favor they gave me.
02-03/11
-trip to Sevilla
-one of the most magical experiences I had.
-still can't get over it. Words cannot express the entirety of how i feel about it. I will write more of this in detail once it sinks in.
Highlights: la setas, basilica, plaza se España, first flamenco, the food (gehd the food) and the grand river with the beautiful bridges.
-well, i've simply immersed in the moment and less photos (other than my camera is not good.. how i wish i've had money to fix my old huawei p40 or bought the new p70 pura..most photos on Facebook but will show some pics here in blogspot)
01/11
-saw an old lady sending flowers to the sea.
I remember it was all souls day.
She might be sending her love to her loved one overseas or a deceased husband who's ashes thrown to the sea.
-had a nice walk to my favorite seashore near Santiago's open gallery.
-i lost my sunglasses to the sea, as I plunged with it. Oh well, i offer it to the universe and i hope there's something greater in return.
-called mamu and told her all my blessings. She is happy and looks beautiful. She said that i am getting back my beauty too, it's just I'm getting thinner. Well, its all because i have adapted to the European kind of diet 😅
-saw maria and able to pay my rent in full. I'm so happy and i thank God for having a kind landlady. May God bless her and her family.
-watched the quiet maid/ caldellita
