daghan

kag masabtan
akong higala
sa pag kulikot
sa pag hinuktuk
sa pag amoma
ug sa walay pagtubag
sa imong kaugalingong
pangutana

babae ng liwanag: p1

isang araw
mey isang babae
na gi-adunahan nang ubod
na ganda at liwanag.



dahil doon
lumiliwanag at gumaganda
ang mga bagay bagay na nasa paligid nya



ewan kung alam ba nya yung ganun na katangian
kasi parang bali wala lang sa kanya
ang wagas at puro na dalisay
nanaangkin nyang kaanyuan



hanggang sa pag dating na nya sa saktong edad
na meron siyang dapat gampanan na malaking
responsabilidad at yun ay
maging taga pagpamahala ng
wagas at puro na dalisay na liwanag



babae ng liwanag:
ok whatever
your will shall be done
even though it's not my thang
to do this kind of thang




like duh, what ever, man



until one day,
sa hindi ikina akalang pangyayari
mey dumating na isang
humahagpis na aleh
na merong matinding panganga-ilangan



aleng mey matinding panganga-ilangan:
oh mah lady of the light,
hear my plea
i've been suffering this kind of darkness
that swallows my whole being
then its only you and your
wayghas et pouro nha dhaleesay nha leywahnag
could only set me free

again, for the second twice
mah lady of the light
hear my plea



babae ng liwanag:
lol! aneh beh!
nakikiliti ako

ano nga yun gurl?
hindi ko ma gets yung eynglish mo gurl
masyadong hardcore
nag nonose bled akoh 'teh!



aleng mey matinding panganga-ilangan:
i could only speak
of things that overwhelms my heart
things of great need
that kind of need
such as desperation to fart

all i ask of you is to share
some of your light
cause i badly need it
needing it with all
my might!

kite
fight
bite
frostbite
bright
and whatever that rhymes
with light

oh please
mah lady of the light
hear my plea





babae ng liwanag:
hay naku! hindi kita feel gurl
aside sa hindi kita naiintindihan,
hindi ko feel maka salimuha sayo

kaya alis
alis ka dyan

aleng mey matinding panganga-ilangan:

puhlease, puhlease, puhlease, puhlease, puhlease, puhlease, puhlease, puhlease, puhlease, puhlease, puhlease, puhlease, puhlease, puhlease, puhlease, puhlease, puhlease, puhlease, puhlease, puhlease, oh pretty please...

oh please
mah lady of the light
hear my plea





babae ng liwanag:

alis na sabi-eh,
hear may plee ka pa dyan (rolling eyes beneath closed lids)
sa huling pagkakataon

tumahimik at umalis ka dyan !

cállate y desaparece!
und Abfahren weggehen!
taire et de s'en aller!
Hold kjeft og gå vekk!
चुप रहो और चले जाओ!
闭嘴，走开!
!اسكت والذهاب بعيدا

i said, shut up and go away!
dah! dah! kasamok oi!

Sheisse!!!





sa kahihintay ng aleng mey matinding panganga-ilangan
siyay naka upo at naging
clay

babae ng liwanag:

hay nakaka-intindi kana man pala?!
mabuti nga sayo, naging clay ka
kasi ang tigas ng kukuti mo!

pero sa mga sandaling iyon.
ang aleng mey matinding panganga-ilangan
ay naka pag sampit ng hindi kanais nais
at kahihinabik balahibong tugon



hahah tawa ng babae ng liwanag

pero sa sandaling iyon,
nang biglang nag ngit ngit ang paligid



itutuloy...

babae ng liwanag: p2

meron palang nakarinig at nakakita sa mga pangyayari
at itoh ay si Maska Blanka

siyay na awa sa aleng mey matinding panganga-ilanganat nagalit sa babae ng liwanag
sabay sabi:



ikaw, babae ng liwanag
waaaahla kaaaahng aaaahwa at ang paaaaahngit paaaangit ng ugali mo
daaaaahil dyan ikaaaahw ay mag aantos
atshaaaaaahka papalitan ko ang pagmumukhaaaaaaah mo
ng paaaaaahngit na itsuraaaah kagaya ng pag-uugaaaaaaahli mo



at ganun na laang
kusang nagbago ng anyo ang babae ng liwanag...

without her knowing!



babae ng liwanag:
hay naku,
hindi ako maniniwala sayo Maska Blanka
walang kabuluhan yang
bunganga mo na hindi naman gumagalaw



but,
omy gosh!
what's going on!



oh no.
this can't be true!
paano nalang yung upcoming kong
debut, the lady of the light presentation atsaka tea party?!



no.. oh please
mahiwagang empty shell
kung naririnig mo ako
ibalik mo ako sa dati kung anyo!



empty shell..
please oh please



empty shell,
nandyan kapa bah?
huhuhuhu

parang wala kana mang imik dyan
holler, sumagot ka nga
ka nga ka nga ka nga..
holler?!
holler holler holler



at yun,
wala talagang nangyaring pag babago
ganun na talaga yung pagmumukha
ng babae
parang isang water specie
na kamag anak pa
sa mga kani-ninoon pa nang mga
sea nymphs



natuloy parin yung debut nya
mey mga taong nag bayad ng bisita
pero wala ni nimong isa lumapit sa kanya
nanghagis lang sila ng mga liso
at itoy kusang tumobo at namulaklak
sa harap ng babae ng liwanag





dahil sa kanyang pagiging miserableh
hindi na nya na masdan
ang liwanag
na noong araw ay nasasa kanya



mga oras na yung liwanag ay pwede pa nyang
maipa-hiwatag at maipamalas sa iba
na nanganga ilangan
ng buong pusot taim-tim



at sa ganun nalaang
ang babae ng liwanag
ay naglahu sabay sa pag daloy ng kanyang luha
sabay sa ihip ng kanyang hininga
at sabay sa pagpalong ng kanyang siga



so yun
tapos na ang kwento
at nilalamig na ako dito




hay naku
makahabag damdamin talaga yung nangyari
so naging emotional ako tuloy

pasensya at paalam

suma sainyo,

liyo



*******for Vera Leigh Lasam,
whose turning 25 two days from now.
may i always be your babae ng liwanag,
without being mahldita.. =)

we love you Veruschka!

CLRV

hala, sige, pangatawa!

with Russ, Rome, Mecca, Chai, ms. B and Suzzette Ranillo

photography by: Archie Uy
location: Kukuk's Nest Gorordo

vanity affair with LV and Nars

we called it improvised smokin'

menthol cig connected to a straw inserted into an ice cube , cool

don't dare mess me up

brown sugar and peppermint gum mixing up oh u bitter cup dont yah mess me up oh u bitter cup u heart breaker crumble batter bit a bit of frog pissah u darn croak crooked frog pissah lard large better bin here too long with your lemonade bomb juice sauteed up yup grilled it up yup broiled hiccup that cyanide stirred hiccup is tirr stirrit up yup oh u bitter cup dont yah wanna drink me up if not so never dare mess up! oh u bitter,bittah bitter cup dont dare messy messeh mess me up!

over break for 22 minutes

keith and i was reprimanded when we got back to work last night.
but i'm quite glad we were able to make it to Russ and Pat's opening performance. And Keith was
greatly impressed when i dragged him for the event. I think he was furious and grateful at the same time.. hehe.. but for sure we didn't regret getting a memo from our boss after the event.

I'm also glad to see close friends last night.. Mecca was there, Ms. B.. David, who else.. oh darn, where was Chai and Dougshky? Will text Chai later...

Got Rum Coke, then Isobel serve us some tea with an invitation from the cup read:

have a tea for yourself with yourself.

anyway, Keith got really inspired and would love to have some photo with herself and me with mah self









Pat Mendoza's wall art is still on-going-on (while its there)
at Turtle's Nest
along Gorordo Avenue

come and see for yourself with yah self!

prelude to: my name is isobel

just attended Russ and Pat's performance art last night at Turtle's.
i went there with Keith on our lunch break.. =) these are some of the snippets i got frm my phonecam before the presentation (i got the real thing camcorded). will post it and write about it soon.

got to work.

bellboy

hat(red)

as an eye injury
pain in every blink
every second
a grain of sand
rubbing with
sandpaper
crawling on a
rusty lane
bloodshot
teary eyed
can you blow it away?
can u lessen the pain?
nah
u weren't there
admitted
in a hospital
alone as
there's no one
but a flying bottle
a drop of anesthesia
2 drops of okays
a laser beam
a photocopy of yesterday
it happens
again and again
everyday, i can see
another pain

an invocation for a new pair of slippers

i've been aged
a quarter of a century-
half of my expected lifetime
there u came to me.
on my feet
size eight
pinkish, under
dust coated toes
they say 'hi' in return
for they came into a new home
here's to indefinite miles
of walk
of climbing
of trekking
of swimming
of struggle
into the cacophonic world
of sounds and music
of visions
of lights
and astral elevation of hymns
a praise
an invocation
for a blessing
that is worth
a day
of not taking
one's meal

say vhat>

go
tweet tweet
u
petter patter tweet
sweet freak
lovely meat
show me
how you feel
for him
sweet kid
u gotta shout it out
to the world
vhat u got
vhat u v\can give
vhat?
say vhat?
u'll be there?
for him
in a call u'll be there
sweep him off
to his feet
by vhat?
with ur mobhile?
phuck!

gud luck!

wahysted

soak
my skin
in bathing
sunlit eyes
squinting
salt,
liquid and
metals are bubbling
inside my head
they're screaming
a flashlight
of sun set
searching
your solace
into the
sand, placing
paper cups
on top
of the nipa hut
whaling
mouth open
catching lies
catching whims
catching seeds
of possibilities
swallow
emptiness
what was left
was you
gazing
through the mosquito net,
drifting

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