round around

we tried to hop round and round for that perfect spot:

nah

ok, let's grab something to drink

1. punyeta
2. walang forever

atsaka yung pangatlo, yung nakalimutan ko kasi sobrang pait
sobrang bitter?!

until

we hopped in here, at "alamat"

it is as if you are one of the extras in a locally produced films---or might as well, among the main casts.

every nook and cranny of this place is adorable and it's always pregnant with possibilities.

anyone can easily strike a conversation with you and won't feel violated (or maybe it's just me and my alcohol)?

in the other hand, their menu is as quirky as it tastes (i can only imagine the quirkiness of their cooks themselves)

i dunno if i'm making sense here as this place is bound to make you just crazy, well in a good way.

me and my friends had a great time here so all i have is:

LoveLoveLove

as the night deepen, i bade farewell to jon and melvin
and i pass by here at makati ave
where neon-lighted-memories flood in
(had some drinks, monette and portia get wasted, met an arabian prince charming, straight, received a flower. went to his hotel, tah teh tah tah)

*bgc
*nectar
*makati ave
*z hostel
*alamat
*cubao
*rapture

@ trader's lounge

pse ortigas

midnight before xmas

Since mamu is asleep and kuya is singing his drunk heart out, 

im doing my own pilgrimage

It's berri corrrd outside

 

#futureforever

"Imagine a future and be in it

Feel this incredible nurture, soak it in"

i found my one true love in this album <3 #utopia #futureforever

Purify toxicity

 #utopia

down the rabbit hole

seascape resort, batangas

It's like an Alice and Wonderland experience where you can follow a bunny's trail down to this mini exclusive place you can stay by just few of your friends or by yourself. 

Well manicured and well maintained resort and their staff are so friendly and endearing. So I am wondering why there are so less tourists came here on a weekend. Maybe it's off peak season for their place? 

In this place, stillness is a guaranteed companion.   

For Gerald

Dear,

I am glad you finally broke your silence. All these times I was just waiting for you to reach out to me, but it was longer than I expected. Our last messages might be too vague and together with other external factors, we might have misunderstood each other.

It was also hard for me for the past few weeks as I was used to being "us" together, but those times when we were silent was spent on contemplating how I am to you and how you are to me. I am pretty much used to being single and as what I mentioned to you before: I always needed a quality kind of relationship. What we had was a rare encounter and I cherish all these months we were together. Heart warming memories keep on coming back to me every waking hours and I smiled mostly since I really had a great time with you. But in the end, I always feel that there is something missing and I don't find that with you. I don't want to blame anyone but I just thought we are not really compatible. I came into conclusion that we are just in love for the idea of "being in love" but we really don't love each other.

I am quite impressed how you handled yourself in the midst of this and please be aware that your pain also pains me a lot. But remember, moments like this makes you stronger, my purpose for you might not be as a good lover but as a mentor. Stop apologizing as no one here is at fault and no one can be blamed as we did what was best for both parties. I wish things work out just fine between us but i guess we are not really meant for each other or maybe we didn't fight hard enough. We might not able to find the answers for that but I always believe that if we really are meant for each other then our paths should crossed again, eventually, in the future.

The universe will always be kind enough and whatever the future awaits for us, let us be comforted with the idea that is for the better. 

sail on,

the "40 days of letting go" project

I came across this website upon having this heavy heart every time I wake up each day. It says: 40 Days of Letting go. I am only on my day two and must say it brings me back to my elements.

40 Days of Letting go: Day 2

masasa, tingloy island

Next to Bantayan Island, this is a great spot where to drop your anchor and feel at home. I consider this shores as my immediate fix for a beach bum escapade from Manila. I could have given 5 stars if only the local government in this area uses the environmental fee to make sure they have disseminate proper IEC (e.g. information, education and communication) on how to manage waste materials. I am aware that the current mayor, Mayor Alvarez is doing clean up brigade but I suggest to come up with an ordinance that throwing non-biodegradable trash is illegal.

I am very saddened how other tourists don't care about their waste , which ends to the beach and making it the widest trash bin. How barbaric and ignorant these people are who drink and leave their bottles and plastic cups on the shore. I wish on their next visit to a different shore, their drunkin heads got smashed right through the bottles with glass splinters on their face and realize they have thrown these garbage that will eventually get back to them.

I always say it to the locals that  tourism may be a great source of income here but they really need to take care of the island as tourism is a huge factor of the island's impending death.

today, i felt there's a need to put things into new perspective.

after the 5 hour biking from Sta. Fe to Bantayan mini port with Mint, Max and Gerald.

remnant

blurred.mind.

I should have done this writing when I am not under the influence of medications (i just had a tooth extraction, plus I still have residue of the injected anesthesia, the pain reliever and the antibiotics, all pumping in my brain.)

as always, having tooth extraction bring back sad memories.

thus having sad recollections, disambiguation and interconnections. I guess it made me think/rethink my over due stay here in manila should end. It's either going back to Cebu or go further north. I wish I can go further north instead. My plans of staying in Baguio was halted since 2014, and the clock has been ticking away my remaining youth.

I have this Panoramic x-ray for my set of remaining teeth and as you could see, my left lower jaw has this remaining fractures of my broken teeth (as my previous dentist persist of having several fillers instead of the permanent and pushing me to go for root canal for me to pay 40k?) I wish i also have the power to uproot her as well.

My set of teeth is clearly not as good and as bad as my situation right now. I guess I really need to uproot the things need to be removed and not wait until they decay.

finding utopia

waking up in Sta. Fe

onsen spa

at i'm hotel makati

with my maxie bella

at the CCP for the official opening of Eigasai 2017

#Reunited

I hope this could let me understand you well

it's been days
since I am wondering
long enough to sort things out
looking at you as a creature
with the burning sting

you dive into the deep waters
and seek solitude to lick your wounds

a pendelum put into a halt
I'm too cold to wave a distress signal
It seems there comes a time
when I realize you tied yourself on a sinking ship
dowsing for hatred
cannot seem to forgive and forget.

dropping off my anchor
I just wanted to make a connection,

however you've lost yourself
deep deep down at the very dark
squinting for faint pattern
finding constellations
that will clue me in

playing mind games,
wishful thinking, I might win

useless to degrade myself in front of you.
I try not to ascend faster than your bubbles
allowing my body to flush out
exhale dissolved nitrogen
a sure way to test my endurance

you are when you are ready, If not
then i will simply count my blessings

fire can melt them somewhat,
air can alter their shape,
but you are who you are
still fixed and concrete
down on the ocean floor

a "fixed" water sign
like ice: desolate and unkind

after a long and tiring day.