Unauthorized late

Whoa! I just intended to take my 15mins break in Ayala when I saw them about to start.
And needless to say, that I will certainly incur over break as I find myself stuck listening to them. Darn! I can’t believe it!

Up Dharma Down performing live.

Armi Millare cut her hair short though, but her voice is still stunning as her fingers tapping those keys. And I can’t help but droll my eyes over their drummer, Ean Mayor as he also have his hair shaved.. haha

Anyhow, I txted Chai and she told me that she will watch them perform later at Handuraw, tonight.


Now, after several tracks (of course I make sure to listen to their “Sana”) I need to go back to work Or else I will need to sign a written warning for abandonment of work.
Pfft'

As im heading back to the office w/c is just nearby, I glance at my watch and im almost an hour late.. whew, bahala na.

*It’s better late than never sumala pa nila.. hahaha

*********************************************************

*It’s better late: sa work
Than never: watched Up dharma Down at all

=)

Sana - Up Dharma Down

for my super hottie mario..

=) lol

*(****

yawning

on a Monday. blue
sighing, in a whizzing flu
tip
tip
tip tapping
freefalling
fading
fist fighting
skin licking
it's not important
what I say is nonsense
for u I’m depressing
for u I’m morbid
for u I’m horrid

but duh, I don’t buy that shit
well, if u ask me
who are u to me?

absolute nothing

for me
I got nothing
But
You
So I’m nothing
But you
So you
Me
And
You
Are nothing but a piece
Of pink purple lavender

Luxardo Amarreto

I call it: drowning with strawberry field

***n

in the verge of hangover
what was it last night?

oh yeah, i almost forget
it was me and my heart shaped kite
it was cloudy, i got a cig
but i don’t have a light
'twas damn cold and a bit lonely
so i went to the party
get crazy, but I’m still turning blue
drunk, get lost in a bar
getting wasted, now i don’t have a clue
with this silly dance routine
in front of a karaoke machine
it was like maybe
maybe I could be with you
'cause all i see
is you
so i kiss them
love them
all of them reminds me of you
so i talk to them
cuddle them
all of them reminds me of you
yeah right, now ur mad
cause u makes me mad
about you
an earthbound-astronaut who
once visited in a happenstance
now,
now,
now,
I dunno


Zzzz

Staring

blankly at my screen
two hours
several hours
of viewing it
until the time you appear

PARAMORE - I CAUGHT MYSELF

i'm not a huge fan of the twilight series but i do really like the band Paramore. And this track never fails to wreck my nerves every time i play it..

by the way, i'm quite excited for the upcoming New Moon movie.. lol =)

tambaloslos

nilabay nasad ka
nilabay human sa tunga ka tuig
nga nawala
nawagtang
nahanaw
didto sa sitio
diin ka nag paregistro
nikandidato ug pagka kapitan---
tigdumala niining akong kasing-kasing

daghan pa kaayo kag pasumbingay niadto
mga plano ug mga plata porma
unsaon pag uswag sa atong paghiuban
kay ako:
usa ka lumulupyo
sa baranggay gugmang giatay

mao na intawn, ako ni boto
sa imong ngalan akong gi kulit
sa ticket nga daw sa loto
kung makadaug, ako adunay premyo.

apan, unsaon taman
ikaw na lagi ang nidaug
apan ako nag pabiling pilde
nagpahipi didto sa daplin,
wala na gyud ilhe

ug ikaw ninglabay
nga daku kaayog ngisi

yeehaaa!

Marlborough Black launching at the Loft
with Gia and Ian... and me, just the photographer behind..
hehe

moginhawa sah ko

standing about 2000 feet above sea level one early morn.
i've been here in this spot for several times already and i always
have this song from bjork humming in my mind:

"Hyper Ballad"

we live on a mountain
right at the top
there's a beautiful view
from the top of the mountain
every morning i walk towards the edge
and throw little things off
like:
car-parts, bottles and cutlery
or whatever i find lying around

it's become a habit
a way
to start the day

i go through this
before you wake up
so i can feel happier
to be safe up here with you

it's real early morning
no-one is awake
i'm back at my cliff
still throwing things off
i listen to the sounds they make
on their way down
i follow with my eyes 'til they crash
imagine what my body would sound like
slamming against those rocks

and when it lands
will my eyes
be closed or open?

i'll go through all this
before you wake up
so i can feel happier
to be safe up here with you

a passerby

excuse me mr.,
before you leave
let me tell you something
that i think, you must know
that again, you blew it
you fire starter
you suicide bomber
ripping yourself apart
eating your tongue
and sipping your newspaper brew
spitting out,
i thought you have nothing
but only pure intentions
nothing but disarrayed constellations
of damp towels, of yellow arm band
buffed and swelling muscles
click!
in a snap
a shot
you stepped back
an empty space
between crooked shadows
a lifeline
a cocktail of pathos
sleeping,
drowning,
fleeting,
so after all these waiting
now tell me,
are you still coming?

hmmm i see,

anyway,

thanks for dropping by.

waking up beside the bartender,

saying:
hey, i think I’m gonna be drunk tonight
i don’t care what style
could it be German, Canadian, American
Cebuano or how about Inuit style?
duh, who cares?
as long as i know how to hold my liquor
as long as i could chug it straight from my mouth to my head!
as long as i could hear u scream
in a dream, in a narrow screen
filling
connecting
penetrating
into this hollow hall
of endless hole
into a nightmare
into a fairytale
of chaos and love making
of quarrels and love making
of hissing and cursing, that always end up to a
steamy hot love making

i would love that
not just a pity fuck
i would like the idea of that
toying with the imagination
of you flying across continents
landing into my pool of beer

then i get drunk
and u get drunk
you! you! you!
damn you for spilling the beer!
then you say sorry
and you say you love me, then you kissed me
closing my eyes, and then
i feel weird, some kinda strange

and then I'll ask you silly stuff, like:
"If a llama crosses the River Thames,
can a monkey in Madagascar traverse the Indian ocean
on the back of a whale,
while tap dancing to a seagull
playing the accordion?"

oh please, stop it my stupid mouth
i said to you, to myself
stop! my head is spinning
my head is puking
my head is screaming with your head
they are fighting
but they are lonely
silly monkeys
still fighting, stupid monkeys
until the next morning
until the next day and the next night and the next day
tah teh tah tah
until waking up beside
the bartender, asking:

one bottle of beer please.

back off!

nah,
it would be a waste of time
nah,
i got low tolerance with bullshit
nah,
you still don’t get it

you better back off
don't you understand?

Donc, marre des:
- mythos,
- profiteurs,
- menteurs,
- alcooliques,
- drogués,
- psychopathes.

Si vous êtes dans une de ces catégories, voir toutes à la
fois, ce n'est même pas la peine de venir me parler.

Das müßt Ihr schon selbst herausfinden !

a borderline douchebag

hello mr.
hello there.
hello, how are you?
yup' i am doing fine
yup' i'm a little bit horny now
uhuh, so whats your plan for tonight?
oh' so you got a connecting flight
from singapore to cebu---tonight
oh i see
hmn, ok
too bad, your always on the sea
of clouds, of tickets and intermittent flu
i never knew about that
That's why your wife divorced you.
i see, uhuh, no way'
'cause, Clearly you are a borderline douchebag.
A week with me...
you'll know your place.

TRUST ME.

i see, uhuh, yeah'
You see,
I'm of the opinion that would be
slightly disrespectful.

My mouth would be good
for making out,
but probably it wouldn't be great
for jizzing in.

Besides, I have a nice mouth...
and deserves more genuine respect
than to be filled with man-milk!

Hmm... I have a sneaking suspicion
that you are not actually a man.

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nangahilom

na ang mga yawit sa babaeng pakan
babaeng nasakitan
sa beynte ka semana nga nakawrasan
sa mga hagit
sa mga ngabil nga nagping-it
sa kalayo nga nilamparos
sa ilang mga barekos nagkabalikos

nangahilom na ang mga daguhong sa mga neknek
nga nikitkit sa panit
mga kwaknet nga bahog anghet
naglupad lupad sa ilok aning
langob nga diin nahikatulog
ang liboang mga gamot

nangahilom na ang mga samad
nga nilakra sa akong mata
nga ni kawkaw gikan sa kalimutaw
ngadto padung sa lapa-lapa
nag ekes-ekes, nag ekes-ekes
nag ekes-ekes, nag ekes-ekes
murag laway sa bukya
nga nipilit sa paa
sa babaye nga nagdangoyngoy
nagbakho sa maoy

nangahilom na
nangahilom na ang tanan
nangahilom na ang tanan
nga nagsamok-samok sa akoa

ambot lang, depende

depende sa kagabhion,
kung lamdag naba o padung kilomkilom
depende sa pagturok sa bugas
kung didto ba nahimugso sa nawong o sa lawas
depende sa dagan sa oras
depende sa panahon
ting-init ba o ting-uwan
depende sa moda
kalma ba o kaha, warlah
ug depende sad sa presyo sa gasolina
kung tag siyete ra gihapon ang sukot
gikan ayala padung abellana

ambot lang kung unsa
unsa man gyud ni naa sa akoa?
wala man unta ko gidugo, o gi-dismenorhea
pero ngano dali man ko sapoton
kung ikaw ug ako naa ray gamay
nga panagbinkil
hay ambot nalang,
depende ra gyud ang ipasumangil.

usa ka babaye

luspad
daot
dakog ngabil
dakog mata
ang aping pula-pula
ang ngipon, yeelo
nya nanigarilyo

bugwak
hooo
bugwak
hooo
bugwak
nigawas, usa ka lawa-lawa
nilutaw, usa ka lawa-lawa
nisayaw, usa ka lawa-lawa
nisuroy ang lawa-lawa

ngadto sa dalan pangadto sa molave
sa dalan nga gikamangan sa mga ugat sa accacia
sa lugar nga aduna sad usa ka babaye
luspad
daot
dakog ngabil
dakog mata
ang aping pula-pula
ang ngipon, yeelo
nya nanikma ug plema

dreaming of malibu

if someone asked you she got plane tickets for three to Palawan and back,
what else can you say?

...darn, yes! sure! go!
...are you for real? hell yeah!
...whoa, slap me please, i think i'm dreaming of malibu..

but yeah, we went and explored Philippine's last frontier

well thanks Kalay and Ms. B (with her BFFs)..
you gals still proved that the best things in life are for free..

tehee' =)

A withering crouch, a pendulum, an infinite motion

00:45

a quick glance
terracotta body

moving
swirling into a fountain

depart
disengage from knowing

white blood cells
quietly tiptoeing into lost thoughts

meandering amongst lost souls
empty bottles of beers

tinkling beside
the glass of water from a teetotaler

empty your mouth
said she:

try to have a taste of smoked salmon
empty your mouth said he:

drink the cup of my blood
layers of layers of dust

mind disembodied
a midnight dance

blue

has not yet been commented on
never been seen
never been risen
it goes inside my lungs
it sits by the nest
where I dangled my air sac
the house of yawning
the place of longing
drowning with hue
the color of silence
blue
the thicket fence
blue
the crooked teeth
of a screaming laughter
of a sobbing ear
leave it alone will you?
leave it to the man
who killed his own shadow
who get lost
with a suspicion of getting back
to a lonely town
where a river murmurs
underneath his feet
blue
is inside my lungs
blue
the lazy haze
sighing
hissing
peeping
into a black hole

nakuratan

aduna pa koy mahinumduman
sa sinkwenta ka tuig
nga nag paturok sa akong mga uban
lima ka gatusang kalayo
nga nitilap sa takna
nga kitang duha nagkahiuban.
aduna pay katamis,
aduna pay kaaslum,
dihang kitang duha nagbaktas niining baybayon
gikaw-it niining mga sanga
ang mga gimpanghunghung mong mga sonata
diin ang udlot sa atong gugma
nagsugod pa ug pangmata
apan sa hagbay nga panahon
nahanaw gyud ang mga dahon
dili ko mapugngan nga kini sila akong mahuptan
dili ko mapugngan sa pagkawala maski ako na
silang giuwanan
sa akong mga luha
sa akong maoy ug kalouy
sa pag-abi abi ug pagpangga

nangalaksi gyud
murag nakilatan, nikurog
ug nakuratan
nalaya ang akong panit
nikarat ang akong tingog
sa apdo nga pwerting kapait
mga tudlo nga nabikogan
mga bukog nga gidangdang
sa uling nga nagbaga
sa kagahapong dili mausab pa

sa panahon sa ting' uwan

nag sigi na sad ug pag dagum
nag sigi na sad pag taligsik
sa katugnaw ug sa kamingaw sa panahon
gusto kong tilapan
ang pisik nga nitugpa sa akong ngabil
pisik sa imong tinanawan
pisik sa imong kalami
pisik sa imong pag bati
gusto kung musoksok diha sa imong ilok
ug magpainit sa imong kilid
gusto naku masinati
ang kaharuhay sa imong ginhawa
nga init init sa akong tangkugo
gaksa ko, gaksa ko palihug
ug aron mahunong ko sa pagkurog
gaksa ko, gaksa ko intawn
ug aron mahiluna na ang nahisaag kung kalag
nga gikapoy na sang sigeg dagan
apan sumala pa sa kanta ni whitney houston
ikaw ba magpabilin, o ikaw ba mudagan palayo?

sa pagkakaron,
nagsige pa ug busdak
ang uwan
sa akong mga mata
nga nalumos sa luha.

naunsa,

naunsa na man intawn?
naunsa naman gyud ni?
naunsa man?
naunsa man ko?
naunsa man ka?
naunsa ba?!
naunsa man gyud ha?!
nga nahi-abot ka,
nahi-abot ko,
nga naboang ka,
naboang ko,
nagwarlah ka,
nagwarlah ko,
nagwarlah ang tanan,
nagwarlah ang world,
nga nakugang ka,
nga nakugang sad ko,
nga wala ko kasabot,
nya wala sad ka kasabot,
na kitang duha, hangtud karon, atong mga dalan mag abot.

ug karon,

unsa naman sad imong sugilanon
sa imong pagka incognito
sa imong pagkawala
sa imong pagkahisaag
kung diin diin
nga eskinita
nga hagdanan
sa babaye nga nisaka
nga nagsyagit
nya'
iyang mata naa sa iyang baba
nga naglaway
ug kalamay
nga nagpabukal
sa puwa kong kwarto
diin ako naghigda
nga gisap-ungan
ang akong mata
sa puwa mo nga panyo
diin ginlabayan ug gatosang espada
ug ikaw nisulod
sa usa ka kwarto
diin naay
tulo ka mga higanting insekto
tulo ka mga lampinig
nga naghimo sa ilang balay
gikan sa ilang mga laway
ug imo kong gipriso
dungan sa ilang itlog
ug ako nahimong ulod
nga nahimong kabakaba
nga nahimong langgam
ug nahimong maya
ug nahimong balangaw
sa panganod, nag paanod
sa banka nga akong gimbugsay
sa kalimot
ako nag mugot

tonight,

the need to be sedated

three lost souls find themselves walking along deserted streets of capitol area blabbering about the gravity of the moon against our subconscious clamour for sedation.

cigarettes, ice cream and a sweating coke float are just temporary remedy for this post midnight restlessness.

we thought that it would be great to ride a kalesa driven by a well trimmed shrub horse and bring us to the house next to a lawyer's residence for a missing father. we found a green gate with a white painted signage: it looks to be number 09.

walk, walk, walking, cussing and cursing. each of us have clouds of question marks in our heads.

can't figure out the semantics behind waiting and waiting for something that we desperately want to happen now.

so we end up eating balut, two rounds of it. as we ask the vendor how old is he when he got married, he answers 27.

more smoke, more ice, less beer. loud music.
some hookers pumping on the ledge
the dj was at the edge
beat pumping, people pushing

we're tired. let's get out of this hell.

5:00 amruss is for sure asleep now. while vera and i just had our coffee with her mom and then the two of us headed to the beach and happen to caught a baby squid.

red devil, rose

I call it: sighing with burning flowers

nangahiwa, nangabunkag, nagkahiusa

nahikatulog intawn:
naghukas, basa sa kaugalingong lana
nahikatulog intawn:
human sa paglupad
didto sa kagabhion
diin ang biga, nagpunpun sa usa ka dagum
diin gi lambigitan sa uban pang wakwak
ug uban pang taong mananap
nga gi-uhaw sa katuyoang lawasnon
nangahiwa,
nangabungkag,
nagkahiusa.

lami nga sakit nga lami
nga lami, lami, lami!
usa ka saulog sa mga matang
nga guinadili

nahikatulog intawn,
gahagok samtang ang tinai ug itlog
nagsamsam sa otin nga gautog