I was shy at the time

when I met him
it was nothing special
nothing glossy at the background
it was just me and the music
him and his drink
all we could just do is shoe gazing
you know what I mean?

i must have reread some letters
to tide me by
remembering a correspondent:

. i am doing fine,
. just that the weather in England
. is dropping down to 8 degrees
. that is too cold for me.
.
. you have been such a superstar again.
. thanks so much for getting back to me quickly.
. all the best,
. m

then the tropical air
brings me back
where were we again?
oh, yeah. cubaoX
the place of which reminds me of
kukuk’s and turtle’s nest
at night
when shoes sleep with
guitar strings

an hour would be
a long long time
standing beside an infinite line
what ever happens
to he and i.

Imogen Heap - Goodnight And Go music video

gehd, just a wonderful song
and if i got a sound track for snippets of my pathetic "love life" scenes
this would be very suitable track..

i'm having Imogen Heap as one of my favorite artists

S(mile)

Bitterness?
How could that be
If All I can see
Is you, smiling at me
Sadness?
How could that be
If all you can see
Is me, smiling at you

But it’s all just a “smile”
as we’ve parted ways
me: heading from east to west
you: heading from west to east
where have all the stories gone?

And just like that'
a dream
that we both have
forgotten

with ian cinco and the bang bang gang

i always get excited when ian cinco, one of my close friends from cebu,
would come here in manila. He’s an epitome of a partyphile who knows no limit.
So I always make sure to tag along with them when he happens to be around (and vice versa)

Because of ian, I became close to his core friends as well.
So I enjoy hanging out with them and boy,
we have this kind of magnet for fun!


with ian, at a saloon in greenbelt (he just had his Php450 haircut!
man, i got mine for only 40 bucks! haha and that's inclusive with the tip!)

I miss our moments in Cebu so being with ian is all about catching up,
we talk endlessly about boys boys boys! Heheh and all those girl talks. lol


from left to right: rap marinduque, me, ian cinco, unknown girl (hush, she's concentrating)
, jun jun and the birthday boy JM (having dinner at Conti's, Greenbelt)

This is our second time around here in manila together. Last time was rap’s birthday,
and now we celebrate JM’s birthday this time. Come to think about it,
these guys are flying from Cebu to manila just to celebrate birthdays.
But I think there are other reasons behind. And one of the many reasons
would be the new places, new faces and of course, the party hubs!
Will be heading to society lounge in makati later
( for another round of bang bang moment).

They’ll be coming back home to Cebu a couple of days from now.
Jm and I will be the ones left here. So will start missing them again.
I even suggest moving here in Manila. Ian says he will think about it.
Hopefully, he will, next year.

jm's day @ society lounge (makati)

Tokyo Police Club - Bambi

this is what i'm talking about

currently digging on this band, i'm starting to like their tracks. They got this guitar that sounds like piano (vice versa) very sick & rad!

An ode to Russ Ligtas’ butoh performance -He[sit]ation

You came in you came and you came when all senses faint as your name yes your name is all there is to it as it goes as it went through unseen doors of histories of which are painted on walls that captivate you with all you do and what you’ve been through as you cringe and you escape a silent scream as tinge of reminisce lighted your dark memories of where you sit of where you spit your st[r]ing of wordless narrative.

there it goes

again
a prick from my upper left chest
a quick glance
perceived to be
the heart's chance
to finally see
myself with you
in a date
as if it was fated
but its long overdue
way too long for my heart to wait
and ask the same question again
‘til when?
but here you are again
passing me a ticket
a lottery
that keeps me wide awake
at night
a feigned delight
but for what?
hating that smile
that make me run, a thousand mile
another round on a maze
i thought it's over: gone
now, another puzzle: undone
in that piercing stare
you really know the way
how to pierce
a gay's heart
no?

to investigate

the limitations
to interpret: a realization
of the human body as a vessel
an attempt
a transcendence
a flight of imagination.
are They
an exploration of self and humanity?
through metaphysical
and psychoanalytic terms?
playing with the perception
of time and emotions:
how vulnerable one can be
at a certain place in time,
and the questions we might ask
about those feelings.
just like careful meat selection
and refined craftsmanship in the production
capturing landscapes
of an unidentified place where dots,
drawn on three different layers
interact with structures
that are already given
and have the capacity to experience the
imagination
and investigate
an interpretation

Take it

why is it
it's better not to take pictures?
do you choose
to remember them instead?
in your mind
carved within the caverns
of your brain,
you keep it.
and you'll always find it
in your head
clinging
like stalactites
it would penetrate
much deeper
probably
more often
than not
rather than a snap
a shot
nothing
but a
blot

in response to p.d.

i will talk to you
i will talk to you
and i will tell you about my dreams
yes, you are in them
and it makes me afraid that
i'm not within your realms
or am i?
cause i'm afraid if i'm not
as it will just means that
our stories are unreal
nothing but a fairytale
it doesn't really exists
after all these years
of us being together
now, it makes me wonder
if you could even still remember
my name
of who i am
of who we were
of where we are
supposedly
so don't get afraid of me
and please don’t even get me wrong
or else, i’ll crash, I’ll die

-for j.s.

Love Lost - The Temper Trap

certainly a great video. i keep on hearing this track on the radio.

TGIF to everyone!

Janelle Monae - Cold War [Official Music Video]

halu!

lakwatsa!

prima ballerina for tonight?



with harry, the emo sponge! hehe
To Mommy Gen and Ken, please mag peace ka kayo..
nasasaktan si harry..
=(

heheh



at mrs. Fields
her cookies are something to die for
i wanna meet her in person
in palo alto
and have coffee with her






GL, ang swerte nang tao makakatanggap ng mrs. fields cookies na ito
naway pagpalain ka ng maykapal
at naway wag ka munang kunin ni lord sa kabaitan




-photos by rainier mengua

saan po ang papuntang careta?

however

you've pushed me away
immediately
dropping me
before dropping you
before slapping you
before smacking you
of unused ticket
of time wasted
and all you have to say:
'it's complicated'
a minute of running
in circles, in zigzag
but ending up with you
don't you just draw me closer
to where you are
finding yourself,
in an infinite stellar
so engrossed of who you are
making me a complete hag
all bruised eyes with teary sag
don't just flash that silly smile
don't just win me up with your
pile long of storyline
i know,
'it's complicated'
but,
it's not what i wanted
hold on,
you seems you had a bad day
fuming,
feet above the ground-
a meter away
lemme finish first,
will you?
all i wanted
all i'm askin'
is for you
to dropp by
not passed me by
please go low
then draw me closer
to you

so, where to?

you don't know
that's fine
let's get lost
chasing and challenging
the potential of seeking
solace
increased
mainly due with the thought
of seeing your own reflection
specifically
on bygone cities
all across the pacific
stamp it on your forehead
stamp it and be sacred
to hell with the inevitable
we are not much in control anyway
most of the time
compensate with the unseen
compensate and be forgiven
getting additional miles of miles of smiles
going back
not for numbers
but for wonders
and then ponder:
asking?
so where am i going?
what am i heading for?
for more, that's it!
even if
you wouldn't be so sure
what's in store
i know,
the unpaid bill is not yet due,
waiting for another
individual
in queue
ranking
communication
between
are string
of expertise
on seeing
on finding
more questions

Florence + The Machine - Dog Days Are Over (2010 Version)

first heard of this in jam 88.3 several months ago
then it became OST for "Eat, Pray, Love"
just love the track, and the video.
enjoy!

Bebel Gilberto - Samba da Benção

just wanna hear this over and over again..

Paramore- All I Wanted

this track is my current fave. Hayley just simply let it go and she definitely rocks!

wait,

lemme just catch you
grab a coffee or a beer
then swipe on sodium lighted street

wait,
do u have just a sec
all i am asking
is not another moment
of solitude

yet again i faltered
stumbling while running
chasing the idea
of loving you
then again i faltered
always been asking
to be bruised
all over again
was i that silly?
or was i that freaky?
tagging myself on
the shadow of you

Little Bit - Lykke Li

darn! darn! i love this track. i keep on humming it these days!
and Lykke Li is someone to eye on.

the lyrics and the beat are definitely disarming.

here's for my new man..

-it's an infinite string of sighs, a sky of perhaps and what ifs

MUA: Areza Ferroni
Photography: Jan Tadoyo

take me,

metro buses
traveling from south
you can hear it
sound waves turning to your right
they passed you by
they swept you
with short goodbyes
fleeting
skipped fro a tip toe
beep beep bashing
beep beep smashing
with your skin
tainted with sin
lacking
of sweet sentiments
growing
with bland insolence
when was the last time
you've seen someone out there
waiting
eyes unwavered
vespering
unfaltered
thoughts meander
unto the unknown
space, filled with
moving desperation
to be taken away
with you

Where was it?

I can see your desire walked across the railway,
What is that silly smile you’re holding?
Tapping it on your shoulder
and veering that grimy eyes away
come
come to me
and say hi
please
im just here waiting
fleeting, and fading
willing to miss the last train
so please don’t let me beg
I said please
O man’
Please please please
freakin puhleeeease

and BOOM!

You just suddenly burst
Just like that
Turned into galaxy of dust
Ananda maxon naishen laredn
Ochrash terei
Erkkkes taishct neh
okaradom

One Day (a book review)

Time is of the essence of this book as it took 20 years for the two main

characters to determine if they’re into each other or not.
It started when Emma and Dexter made love (or shall we say had a
casual sex) on the night of their graduation. It might have been a
budding romance for each of them but fate might have suggested more to it:

it’s just a beginning page of each versions of self evaluation,
exploration and the never ending question of one’s happiness
w/c were revealed chapter by chapter in a span of 2 decades.

David Nicholls well penned a story that portraits the protagonist’s
inner struggle of w/c their heart always in conflict with their mind.
It’s kind of comic yet it’s generally a sad story as the author paints
the darker side of growing up and random cruelty of life.
The interweaving of Emma and Dexter’s love story is quite a mock
of how we suppose to carry on with our heart’s triumphs and failures.
A reader could reflect one’s past as we also have the tendency
to wonder what could have been the outcome if this happened
tah teh tah tah. A novel of what If’s and shoulda-woulda-coulda.

The book is about to be turned into a film w/c will be directed by Lone Scherfig

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the beauty of happenstance

rush hour inside MRT is only heavenly when u squeezed in beside a cute guy.
sigh, the beauty of happenstance

Sia performing Clouds @ Club Soda Montreal-April 30, 2010

it makes me run around my room. lovely music. and she's as playful as bjork (a bit)
im digging on her other tracks now

Le Coeur de France

it's one of manila's sought after bakery. I like this branch as they have this freshly baked pastries, breads and other French products that spread gastronomically insane aroma around Shangrila plaza.

i've tried their croissant, baguette, and glazed fruit tarts and it's just incredible. all the flavors are happening at once as you would taste the marvel of french baking in every layer.

if you get lost in manila, u might as well find urself some solace with their bakeshops


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