02/2020

02/02
-went with my folks and simply recharge myself with mama and papa. They still fight with neurotic outbursts, so i treat ourselves for a massage.
-watched Mirage and wanna go back to 1989 😄

02/06
-psych180
 Memories are malleable?
 Perception persists..

 Old memories i have when i am very young (around 4-5) which is still vivid:
-attraction to this (guy neighbor/father figure) since my biological father is not around
-the pleasure with anal rubbing, cr..

02/11

I love my current professor, yasmine almonte lantz, she is theory and practicum combined. I love her as much as i love sir mundz, they are my ultimate reference when i get back to teaching someday..

another lost

my phone just got snatched,
last feb 16,
dawn after Saturday night madness
on a bus

after me and carri attended UPFair2020
had a really great time as I introduce her to soju
able to hear moonstar88 sang migraine and torete live
I said to my self: gehd, this is way too good
then carri's digital vape got lost
then we tried to shrug it off in cubao expo
then today x future
rapture and had videoke
its a wrap and were heading home
its a crowded bus, no empty seats so we are standing in the middle,
and as other passenger brush us off to get out
my phone got lost..

aside from important contacts, fuck buddies, potential lovers, app msges, so many HD photos and videos, my memories.. and darn, my writings are there..
definitely, they are irretrievable since I haven't backed it up, I have no terabyte-sized memory device and what have you..

but I am glad, few of my writings are intact, im glad I used this app and able to recover my snippets of writings. without these notes, I felt like my days just burnt in the air, fades away with forgetfulness..

01/2020

01/01/2020
-spent new years eve at technohub with colleagues wendy and josh and see the fireworks after we had company buffet
Be with max for the entire long vacation leave
Makati
Tagaytay
Marikina Karen's son's bday
Massage cubao
01/05/2020
Meet geof, finally for the first time. My first sex for 2020, had two rounds with him.
01/07 2019
-enrollment for 2nd sem, still have a long way to go to finish my arteduc course =(
-had sex with geof before his parents arrive at 5:30pm

01/09/20
-had my first purchase bike
-had an accident for a very long time
-but damn, it feels so great pedaling inside updil campus;
01/10/20
- had a better/smooth enrolment this time
01/01/20
-had some bad misunderstanding with geof
I thought i can stay/overnight with him this weekend
-pnp with jade.tsora
Haven't had really good long sex for a while
All the while, i never knew about taal volcano eruption
Awake all day
Almost 24 hours
01/12 to 01/13
Im just floating
01/14
-geof and i are now in good terms, might visit him.in.baguio
-5'11 crush also starts texting me again, he is weird..
-cant get off jade.tsora on my mind
-everyone in social media is trying to be relevant, significant and participative, while me im just living my life as i can
01/15
-cant get off jade.tsora from my mind
-had my first class for this sem edfd116 (inc before, and as usual it has so many requirements) but i will pass it this time, for sure
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01/16
-ignored jade, he's a liar and not true to his promises (that he will make up for the gv i had with him last weekend)
01/17
-can't believe that geof can make it for the 3:30 sched for "weathering with you"
-kilig overload, its been a while since the last one
01/26
-haven't seen geof since we had our movie date at centenario
-tried inviting over in shang but he txted that he had some errands, i missed him
01/31
-corona virus "fear" is all over with a rampant usage of face masks
-not feeling anything special, even 5'11 and q.ave guy doesn't appeal to me anymore, they txted but im all quite and distant

 

12/2019

12/28/2019
-went to a bath house
-had 4-5 men and had my ultimate moment with chuck
(Tall, moreno, chinito, nice chest, great dick, sex was really good)
-capped my night with this guy from tondo? Sleaky guy and we had dinner at pares retiro, perfect night.

12/29/2019
-woke up with a terrible headache and a naked man in my bed (the guy from tondo)
-had barb q with him and had some milk tea and brought him at sunken garden
-i told him im depress

-had my haircut massage and sleep all night

12/30/2019
-am i naturally born happy and choses to be sad
Or the other way around?
-had one of the best sun bathing in years, good for my psoriasis
-also had a great yoga in betaway (bench 1985)

with maxie bella

 

@ Poblacion Makati

taiwan = formosa p2

Hush
taiwanese icon, a message:
"Embrace ur enemies, embrace ur family, embrace ur lover..
 Embrace urself"

I met Ming at the final hours of my stay in taiwan. It's amusing how we use google translate to communicate. imagine, we type in our message, have it translated and then flash our phone's screen to express our feelings. We met at the 4th exit of ximen station. The moment i saw him, i am struck with his facial feature, I find him cute and adorable. He accompanies me going to ximendeng and walked side by side and with thousands of people, i could only sense im with him.

I asked him to be my boyfriend for the night. And he flashes this 20k carat smile 😁. Just like arturo's. When i grabbed him by the sidewalk for a kiss, it was such a marvelous bliss.

I am in love.

I tried to expand every minute as if its a

If only i can spend my entire night and days with him 🥺

I was happy and sad at the same time. But we have to part ways. I gave him my beep card as a souvenir and as a pact that one day we will meet again.

taiwan = formosa p1

Ximen = semen?
😅
Smoke smoke smoke
Smokers are around the city


Soundtracks:
Pei guo - going to taipei 101 highway
Miyuko kamio (Tchaikovsky)- elephant mountain
Yeu li - ximending
Bjork  - geopark and waterfallls
Spirited away playlist - Jiufen

sometime on my 1st day:

While making pila for food in the morning,  a chinese guy who work in canada approached me..  I can sense his eyes turning into pair of hearts and his nicotine stained teeth flashing in its full glory, And then he mentioned something like, other than the pride, im here for "meaning".

like, ok..
fine, kaso yung linya at hininga mo dude, panis

***

sometime in the middle of the night:

Just woke up frm a dream
Im on my 2nd day in taiwan
But i dreamed i am in japan for 2nd time?
A lady gave me cold drinks---because i am very special 😁
She made this ceremonial dance wherein she draw a straw on-air and then she tap tap on the forehead
Looking right
And then tap tap looking left
And then tap-tap to the cheeks to cool down
Tap tap on the lips
And the lips were given with a very good pout 💋

Standing by a stream while watching sunset.. A stream where "seas of music" flows into. So even seeing a single ripple, you can hear the faintest music..

***

Our tourguide from KLOOK! She is like a mother hen, will always look for her lost chicks. I know she keeps being patient but the way she reprimand the late comers was so civil and very professional.

She's also very sensitive on sensing someones needs even if you dont ask for it. let's say for example:

This picture was taken when i was so drawn to the yellow sea.. In fact she saw me that i was all alone so she was so eager to take picture of me.

aww.. im so touched, I almost cried. Just kidding!? 😅

***

Space inn
Heyang

Common cr - no need for local bathhouse
intriguingly, one of my most memorable place

as i pee one of those wee hours in the night
there's this cute hunky bi spectacled guy, (cannot tell if he is from HK or from MY, he doesn't look like taiwanese) he happened to be my roommate
I already keeping an eye on him
inside our all-male quarter
everytime i pass by his cot,
i could have a glimpse of his youthful flawless (yet moreno for an asian) skin
he's only wearing a brief.. my fantasies have been quenched when

our eyes fixed and then we look down at eachother's cock
he has nice armpits and uncut dick
he smelled of dried orange peel
we kissed and we suck each others cock
then we get inside an empty cubicle
Mutual jo and he suck me till i cum
---one of the perks checking in a hostel

****

and then one day inside the hostel's cr, i saw a naked hot guy in the shower,
we were both horny
i followed him to a different cubicle and was amazed he got huge dick for an asian,
(i guess he is japanese by his looks)
with piercing.. Bareback fuck until he came

I had a crazy stay, and able to save a lot of NTD for the accommodation and skipping the local bathhouse. 

Google, show me the real jungle. 😅

 

Museum Visit

Given with enough time and energy, I could have visited the National or Metropolitan museum but visiting nearby galleries such as Galerie Joaquin | Modern and Contemporary Art in UP Town Center was not a disappointment at all.

Was able to witness two exhibitions from two artists that I am not completely aware of. I guess one of the challenges in Art Criticism is to provide formal analysis first as concrete as possible, before reading into the artist's statement.

Even from afar, the works of Aldrino Abes really catches my attention as familiar figures were reproduced in a large scale replica, but the moment you get nearer, the details will astound you as instead of the accurate imitation of stroke of a certain classical painting, it was rendered on a "pixelated" version.

Johannes Vermeer's "The Girl With a Pearl Earring" and "The Milkmaid" are one of the chosen subjects that Aldrino Abes chosen to be rendered on how he see these masterpieces. His version of these portraits were as if being zoomed in and due to limited resolution, one can see a pixelated image.  The results blurr the images in a cubist approach but as a human eye is trained to make sense of the image as a whole together with the viewers familiarity of the classical artwork, then somehow our mind will do the trick of mixing both images (the one we have remembered and the one we are currently seeing) together.

They said "Imitation" is the highest form of compliment. Well, for me, this kind of version has completely impressed me as it somehow give us a new light of how we see classical artwork in the most latest composition.

"The Girl With a Pearl Earring" 

Artist: Aldrino Abes

Medium: acrylic on canvas

Dimension: 48 x 36 in

"The Milkmaid" 

Artist: Aldrino Abes

Medium: acrylic on canvas

Dimension: 48 x 36 in

Aldrino Abes exhibit was entitled Disassembled Assembly which only ran from August 16 to 25 of which was preceded by another exhibiting artist, Raul Isidro with his exhibit entitled: Colorati which has been extended until further notice (Supposedly only up until September 4, 2019) 

Most of his work on this collection were medium scale, ranging from 2 x 2 feet to 2 x 3 feet in sizes. His medium is mostly acrylic on canvas. At first glance his works remind me of the "Color Field" art movement of which dominated by the works of Mark Rothko and Ronie Landfield, with the similar lush paint strokes but with cut out figure on a plane colored background. 

        The juxtaposition of these painted blocks make you think of cut out papers pasted on a cardboard. The result is like a collage of painted blocks with some color gradient strokes here and there. There are times, the solid blocks are either splashed with heavy colored stokes to scratched layers revealing the initial colors underneath.

 "Formation"

Artist: Raul Isidro

Medium: acrylic on canvas

Dimension: 20 x 16 in

"Midsummer Landscape"

Artist: Raul Isidro

Medium: acrylic on canvas

Dimension: 24 x 24 in

His works somehow mystified me as I cannot fathom what is he trying to portray until I was able to check on the titles and artist's introduction for this collection. It was mentioned that he spent some time in the western part of Samar, specifically Calbayog which was donned with melancholic landscape and beautiful sunset. So I imagine painting a landscape and then cut it out to pieces and have it pasted randomly and then framed it---very tricky and such a marvelous technique.


Images and reference link (as of 09/12/2019):
https://www.galeriejoaquin.com/exhibitions/
https://www.http://agimat.net/colorati/

wag ka ng umiyak

 

going back to scratch

from Cebu back to Manila

here in QC

it's gonna rain

 

Stoic

while closed eyes and flowing with my own breathing,
my first yoga teacher impart this concept, that until now, it reverberates inside my core:

all our lives, we keep striving on:
GAINING

today,
learn the art of
LOSING

"ocean eyes"

was playing billie eilish in my head while swimming earlier. athletes swam me by as im imagining them as dolphins, seals and baby whales.

billie's songs make me sad. except her come out and play track.

usually, once im sad, i usually go to beach and swim and have all those salty tears mingle with the sea. then i immerse myself and scream on top my lungs under water. soaking myself in. until those waves of comfort calms me down.

it's been a while since i cried. it's been a while since my eyes became an ocean of emotion. i kinda miss it that i wanna fake it. one can't be constantly happy, you know?

eigasai is coming, up until now i havent watched poolside man. instead, was watching stranger things 3 and there was a pool scene where there are hot mamas swimming in their 80's inspired make-up.

i tried to focus on my breathing and strokes. I noticed the water is unusually clean on a friday. and i like how they keep it warm at night.

then i closed my eyes and billie eilish is still on my mind, crying black ink.

CEBU #yogafest

 

Pauwi na sana ako, kasi sakit na ng katawan ko, kaso mey cute na dumating.

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moon flow

 

Doing yoga & meditation by the shore at 3am when you have the whole beach by urself, low tide & it's full moon, for me, that was the best.

anything in my mind

Lightroom

I'm so old school that i usually get pointers from magazine and, ugh, old books..

I am aware that there are certain "social media" influencers that can really teach you a thing or two, its just that delving into their noisy world means you have to dig deeper and determine who you can relate with.

So one time, i came across a tutorial:  how to level up your photos, thru vlog.  Since i don't own a dslr or mirrorless camera, i became interested.

They introduced: adobe lightroom.

Of course, i downloaded it and now trying to play around with it. This is what i have achieved based on my personal aesthetics. Thats the point of this post.

Ktnxbye 😅

Meditative awareness

If only i can sit with this cat a little longer, and practice kumare gandhi's blue light meditation with it 😅💆😺

sail and keep sailing on

highlight

morning after spending the night with an ultimate hunk guy from Pampanga whom i met in epic last night. felt like a lucky bit h

sailing on

 

@boracay

I started my day having coffee in the rain. Literrally, by the beach and by the sea. Tasting coffee with raindrops will always have that magical moment since no barista can create rain water.. lol, am i getting nuts?

I end my day hiking on this peak. The view from above  can only pinpoint the places that trigger some great memories.

This island was able to attain such supremacy in terms of peace and beauty (most of the time,  madness) and i hope local and tourists alike will not abuse it.

I never felt so overwhelmed for a long long time.

#imagratefulgrapefruit

#pubcrawlboracay