mushy

there's so many times i feel like dying..

how i wish this rotting feeling just be erradicated and be burried.

but, it lingers

and it pains more than i cud ever muster..

still, i cease to live and learn from it..

if there's a time to mourn then, theres a time to dance.

trying to be pre-occupied all the time

trying to chase off the depression away

and i realize how busy i became

and i realize i should be tamed

9:00 am.. my class is still 4 hours away

drag my butt inside the library

its a breezy summer.

i got a microcosmic view of our campus by the window

so placid yet moving

and the accacia leaves keep on scattering on the asphalt pavement

i got my hands on this oak smelling book

authored by Margie Magritte

she was a widow who doesn't just loss her husband and two children in a car accident

but also her will to continue to live as well.. she mourns and she grieves..

but somehow she able to cope up and and have this lessons written on her book:

Grief the Mourning After.

The lessons of Grief..

"however, i firmly believe everything that comes our way is material for our growth"

• the value of living the present
• the joy of spontaneity
• the value of time

The need for simplicity..

Learning to live more simply frees our energies to be truly creative. In a world full of stimulation, it is necessary to divest ourselves of as many needless tasks as we can.

there's lot of circumstances that were'nt under our control.. we must move with changes..

--- and without change, we wither and die

The value of Patience

Grief also teaches us that we must be patient with ourselves allowing the grieving process to take place in whatever manner it is supposed to. If life becomes hurried, we miss the best part--- the quite, uneventful, meaningful moments we can know alone or with those we love.

i guess.. the thing that i really learned from these excerpts is that

i must move on